Live like you were dying

Live like you were dying 

(Inspiration song Live like you were dying: BY: Tim McGraw ) 

Live like you were dying,

Admit all the things you were denying,

Do the things , you always wanted too,

Travel the world or fall in love or two,

Dance the night away,

Treasure the sweet moments every day,

Go and do something out of the blue,

Step outside of box , do something new ,

Feel the feeling of breaking free,

Soul search and find the true meaning to be me and see,

The reason you tried,

To live life and soar and flied,

Don’t hide just go,

Then you’ll realize and know,

To clear your mind and refresh,

Feel the sun against your flesh,

Consume the warmth from the sun,

Win the marathon you always wanted to run,

Live like you were dying,

Don’t give in your flying,

try to be yourself and the best you,

You have nothing to lose. 

A mother’s touch

I’m strong enough to climb the mountain ,

As my tears fall down like a fountain,

I can overcome the pain to strive through,

Cause I know all I have is

You,

Your my rock and  my voice,

My sanity when I can’t make a choice,

As my mind gets stronger,

The healing process won’t last any longer,

Cause I’ll be strong enough to stand on my own to feet ,

And with your guide I won’t have to repeat,

The mistakes I’ve made and done,

Cause  you’re inspiration is what I’ve won,

Your voice will forever linger In my Mind , 

I won’t forget who made me find,

My own voice and my own two feet,

Now I can strive to my own beat. 

In each others arms

The closer and closer we become,

The more our hearts beat as one,

Your like the music I replay over and over in my head,

The reason I smile with every text you sent and  Ive read,

My heart swells with love when our eyes meet,

As your tender heart touches mine when we greet,

My mind and heart are finally connected from two to one,

And When i have you in my arms, I know I’ve already won,

Your a great friend and sweet boyfriend,

I’m sure it will Last till the end,

Cause your heart and mine beat as one,

And with you I’m never on the run,

Run from pain or sorrow,

Cause you brighten every tomorrow,

Together our souls are unison flowing together,

When our love is true ,i know it’s forever . 

They won’t tare me down

They won’t tare me down. 

( This is a poem about my journey and how far I’ve come since my start of my Illness . It’s about how outside influences may affect you but you can’t give and let them tare you down )

I can’t always be perfect In everything i do,

But sometimes I wish they would get a clue,

That I’ve changed and I’ve made strides,

The external influences they just crush my pride,

I try so hard but I feel it’s not enough,

Maybe I’m just weak and i need to be tough,

But I put 100 percent in everything I do,

I know we have to please  ourselves but I can’t please  you,

Maybe it’s something I’ve done,

And I try not to believe the battle can’t be won,

But I loose faith when I try,

It just Tares me inside, I want to cry,

But I don’t ,cause I know I’m doing great,

And if they don’t see it well I can’t wait,

Till they see the improvement like I do,

And till then I won’t give in to you. 

Strategy

The darkness won’t haunt me anymore,

No more memories that scar me , I’ve opened another door,

And there’s no flashbacks of the pain inside,

I no longer  have to hide,

Yes it was real , i won’t lie,

The visions and the pain that wouldn’t die,

But now I know they were just in the past,

And like old scary stories nothing lasts,

My pain was real and I know,

I have to forget it and grow,

Grow from the pain and the sorrow,

Cause there’s always tomorrow,’

Tomorrow won’t be the same,

Cause no one plays the same game,

Twice with the same strategy,

And I learned it all starts with me. 

Painting you

The effortless pulse  of the heart,

Syncs us  together, when we are apart,

My thoughts are just of you,

Especially when my skies are dark and I am blue,

My eyes mirror your reflection in my heart ,

The reflection is a masterpiece of art,

My mind can’t put the words to the feeling,

So abstract and so surrealing,

The colors so vivid so alike,

Creates a strong strike,

Of light coursing through my

Heart,

Forever together, your my work of art,

A Masterpiece so beautiful in contrast and feeling,

I can’t stop painting the image it’s surrealing ,

My eyes Capture this piece on the page,

As beautiful as the mornings sage. 

Who I was is who I am

As young as I am ,I was younger then,

and I can remember all the lessons when,

My mother taught me how to love,

Nature , people ,everyone and above ,

All that , she taught me to see,

That you don’t have to be,

Anyone but yourself ,

And having that is better than all the wealth,

She made me realize,

It’s okay to shed tears and cry,

and she taught me to feel,

Even when you Don’t want to believe it’s real,

And she’s taught me how to grow,

Older and older and now I know ,

She’s made me who I am today,

And I’m grateful in every way,

And I taught her stuff too,

That no matter what I will always love you. 

Dreams

As I close my eyes to sleep,

There’s no need to count sheep,

No pain that haunts my hours,

As my internal mind starts kicking in it’s super powers,

No ticking of the clock as I count down every minute,

And no question asking if I’m still in it,

In it , to still follow my deed,

Straight to sleep like a growing seed,

As I wake I’m feeling dazed,

No magic powers , I’m amazed,

As the journey to sleep was so

Easy,

No need for pain or feeling queasy,

It’s a dream, where I fly,

Through the darkness and up so high,

No rain just bright stars,

Hidden beneath all the scars. 

When you have to be strong

It’s hard to be weak,

When life is at its peak,

Of the worst type of pain,

But every sunshine has its rain,

You can turn your frown to a smile,

And stay in the happy moment while,

The pain is surrounding you,

As turns blue,

No matter the feeling,

There’s always healing,

Behind the pain and sorrow,

There is a tomorrow,

For a new page to be written in light,

When your world shines so bright,

My agony will linger no longer,

When life hits me with a ponder. 

Stand up -for you

When the world is so unjust ,

You got to and you must,

Believe in yourself and your heart,

Despite the other opinions that try to tare you apart,

No person can change  who you are,

You know what you believe and how,

It effects your life,

Don’t give in to the strife,

Just to fit in or feel the same,

Or follow the same rules to the same game,

Just follow what’s right and what’s true,

Knowing all you have is you,

To believe and the lead,

Don’t give in to what you read,

Follow what’s right in your heart,

Cause nothing is wrong with playing your part.

A weight off my shoulders

I haven’t felt sad in a while,

And I know you can feel sad even if your not a child,

I haven’t felt deep pain,

It tends to flow out of me like rain,

I haven’t been sad or blue,

And I know it’s possible and true,

That I’ve found my inner strength and heart,

And my confidence inside won’t tare me apart,

But these days have been so real,

That all I feel is happiness and it’s what I feel,

But I know it’s a feeling that will always be with me,

Sadness just comes naturally ,

But I haven’t felt so sad in a while,

I’ve definitely healed my inner child,

I’m strong yet I’m also weak,

Maybe this is my highest peak,

Of where  I’m able to feel free,

Connected and as happy as can be. 

Your story

To share your stories,

As you dissect your past and former glories,

It Can change the way you look at life,

Despite the agony and strife,

Your story may not have a lot of happy times,

But you can still find the light in simplest of  rhymes,

Although your life might be painful and sad,

The other pages may resemble the good moments you’ve had,

When it wasn’t so hard to bare,

And the ache and sorrow wasn’t there,

Your end chapter of pain is gone,

Like the darkness when it fades to dawn. 

Self discovery

I’m brave ,strong and not weak,

I’ll strive right up  to the top of that mountain peak,

My heart and mind stronger than ever,

With my inner mantra, never say never,

I’m determined to fight my own battles ,

Carry the pain and the emotional cattle,

Despite being strong and brave,

Only I can save myself and myself can truly be saved,

My prayers are answered and my troubles are solved,

It’s better when I ask for help and get people involved,

I’m on a journey so life changing and inspiring,

I’m alone no emotional siring,

Cause I’m building my life from the ground up,

And I won’t give in , When enough is enough,

I’ll strive for more cause when I’m done,

My life can finally start and it’s just begun. 

Muse

In the darkest of night,

Your the aurora shining bright .

As the sun turns to dark,

Your the light in the park,

My mind has been so full of light,

Following the radiant light , so bright ,

It’s like a song only meant for me,

Showing me the way to see,

Happiness among the pain,

Determine the difference between tears and rain,

The riddles of life and self reflection,

To relieve the tension,

Your the muse of the story,

The guide to glory,

The backbone of the light,

The strength in all kryptonite 

Hero

Amongst the stars you shine the brightest among all,
You dry my tears as the fall,
Nothing can tare us apart,
Because our love is strong in heart,

Your the answers to all my questions I ask,
Your amazing being a mother is your task,
My heart and soul is forever grateful for your heart ,
Your my rock together or apart,

Who I’ve come is so much from who  you are,
The beautiful person my shining star,
Your my inspiration and my reason to be,
A strong person and stay me.

A mother’s ballad

Your like a serenade ,

That all the instruments can play,

Your a rhythmic beat,

Played when your dancing and taping your feet,

The song so beautiful no lyrics can define it,

Something so special it got some magical wit,

It’s so gentle it can make you sleep,

As it’s so touching it can make you cry,

The song is as strong as a ballad to a lover,

Yet unique , stands out like no other,

Your an amazing sweet mother ,

so loving and full of wonder. 

Drifted and dreamed

As a sit amongst the wild flowers and the trees,

I feel the warm touch of a cool breeze,

The touch of the sun warm my face,

Like a gentle warm embrace,

The leaves fly down from the trees,

Like a sweet serendipity ,

The beautiful landscape from my eyes view,

Is as sweet as the resemblance when I look at you,

My mind wanders as my imagination soars,

As the sun seeps into my Pores,

My minds in a daze,

That sweet summer haze,

As I close my eyes down to sleep,

All the happiness and memories I keep ,

The warm weather the beautiful sight,

Send me into a warm gentle goodnight . 

Grudge-less life

I can’t help feeling the way I feel,

I feel envious and it’s strong and it’s real,

I can do everything they can do but I hit the floor,

I can create goals and open doors,

for myself to make strides in life,

I can feel happiness and strife,

But I can’t be envious of what i don’t have now,

Even though I wish I had what they had and how,

How , can I get what they have for myself,

Despite my altered health,

I can just believe and keep working hard,

To walk miles and yards,

I just have to believe and take one-stride at  a time,

Instead of wishing I had what they have ,every other rhyme. 

Reminisce the little things

When I’m alone at night,

I reflect back , on the sight,

That sight is like a clip replaying in my mind,

Memories I’m forgetting to find,

A safe place to store it in my head,

But it replays over and over when I’m in bed,

Sometimes when I’m alone my mind reflects,

On the amazing little things , I tend to forget,

Like brushing my teeth with my brothers ,

Or the sweet voice of my mother,

I miss those little moments,

As I replay the main components,

Of my life I miss the little ones,

The simplest ones that wouldn’t be the same re-done,

I can’t go back to the game

Nights,

I can just replay the core sights,

That makes me smile,

As I reminisce the moments while,

I’m alone,

Every moment is a memory and a mile stone.