Adjust and learn

Adjust and learn 

I’ve been down roads that led to dead ends,

Adjusted , changed and made bends,

I’ve turned around And stayed true, 

Even though life is hard and I’m following the clues,

My heart was weak and my mind tested ,

But with a refreshed head I’ll be rested ,

Times challenge my mind until I’m able to endure,

Life for its blessings , curses and pures,

But I won’t give in to the pain,

I’ll learn from my mistakes and it wash out like rain,

I’ll adjust and learn from the hardships of the past,

Until I’m strong enough to endure it and last. 

It’s not an exact science

It’s not an exact science 

When life is unbearable,

I look at all the variables,

What can I control ,

When life takes it toll,

I think of how to be strong,

When the sad moments seem to last long,

I try to focus on what’s ahead,

Remembering the positive instead,

There’s no exact way,

To live life each day ,

But if I stay true and be me,

I  can focus on being the best I can be .Hey 

Turning it around

Turning it around 

You may feel like you have lost it all,

So diminished like your gonna fall,

But then all the tears dry,

And all the hopes fly ,

And I find out the reason I broke down,

And the solution to my frowns,

Everything comes together in the end,

With the inner strength and my friends,

My heart hurts and I break down,

But with everything going for me I turn it around. 

Piece by piece

Piece by piece 

I’m gathering each little piece together,

Holding my strength in , so I don’t sever,

Believing in myself so I don’t fall, 

remembering past pain , I’ve been through it all,

I was strong before,

I got to reopen those doors,

I need to step inside,

Stride forward instead of hide,

I won’t give in anymore,

Despite how painful and sore,

Life will always be a struggle,

Piece by piece it’s a puzzle . 

stronger

It gets easier each and every day,
as im getting stronger each and every way,

Pain lessens each moment,

And ever night I own it,

Time keeps going,

Life keeps flowing,

And I fight to stay strong,

Cause Im gonna last long,

Long enough to feel the real happiness, 

I won’t be in destress, 

Caus. im stronger than I was yesterday,

Better and happier today,

Tired

Tired 

I’ve done what seems like everything in my power ,

Ive gotten the sweet and the sour,

I’m hurt and torn down,

When I smile I feel like a frown,

Cause my heart can’t take the pain,

Tears fall like rain,

I’m tired from the crying,

Insecure as people are lying,

When I try to stay strong,

Its hard to last long ,

I’m tired when the pain is on and on,

When I want it gone. 

all the things I wish I could say

tonight I was thinking about you,
all the memories of us two,
and all the time that has past,
and how the memory of you. continues to last,

I wish you were here,
sometimes I can feel you near,
all the things I wish I could say,
realizing your not here another day,

I wish I could tell you everything new,
all the new candy that came out I know somehow you'd knew,
I wish you were here,
you know I wish you were near,

shield

I won't let them see me fall,
I've been through it all,
I wont let it get to me,
cause im gonna set myself free,

cause you can talk about me all you want too,
it wont let me feel blue,
im stronger than the words that pierce me,
it may hurt but I wont let myself bleed,

cause no matter how many times you pull me down ill get back up,
im strong and I know im worth it and strong enough,
ill fight because im strong enough,
if you me push me down I know Im tough.

Battlefield

ive been torn down many times,
anger expressed through my rhymes,
tears shed through those eyes,
I got keep going, I got to try.

people are telling me to let the pain go,
trust me I would If I could go with the flow,
I admit it hurts and it got to me bad,
but I can no longer be sad,

I got to grab my shield and try,
to be the stronger person no more tears I will cry,
I will come out of this battle victorious and strong,
ive come this far and stood this long.

still goes on

There’s no instruction manual for how to live life,

It has its happiness and strife,

There’s no right way to go,

The more you learn the more you know,

There’s no balance there’s light and dark, 

Life isn’t a walk in the park,

Time keeps on going,

The rhymes keeps on flowing,

And when time and the light fades,

Play your hand of spades,

Travel through life knowing,

Your still growing. 

piecing things back together

if you fall get back up,
don't give in when you had enough,
walk through the stages of pain and acceptance,
to be alone sometimes people aren't so reluctant,

sometimes the pieces don't fit,
but that does mean quit,
smaller pieces make bigger pictures,
focus on the main fixtures,

see the realization through the struggle,
value each piece of the puzzle ,
keep getting up after each pain,
there's sunshine after the rain

Despite the drama

moments like these drag you down,
time moves on but I'm turning it around,
life keeps going despite the drama around,
listening to the internal sound,

you can't make the world smile,
but you can strive to make your life worthwhile,
despite the people that maybe against you,
life can open doors to opportunities that are brand new

Turning it around

Turning it around 

I’ve emotionally fallen down,

Trying hard to turn it around ,

The sadness has pushed down ,

As I fight back and forth to turn it around ,

I’ve made mistakes ,

I hurt and I ache ,

Life has its ups and downs ,

It’s smiles and it’s frowns, 

I’ve tried to dry my tears ,

Talk about my fears,

But lately I’ve made steps back  I need to move forward ,

To create order. 

Make it right

Make it right 

I’ve tried to make right,

To help make myself sleep better at night,

I’ve tried to make it work between us,

But your hard to trust ,

I tried to forget the pain you put me through,

Be the bigger person to you ,

But making it right isn’t easy ,

And life isn’t breezy,

I’m trying to move on from what you did,

Playing my cards and bids ,

I forgive you for me not you,

Knowing I’m stronger to move through.

The bully

The bully 

I’ve struggled a lot lately ,

It hurt me greatly,

The pain tore me down,

In darkness I didn’t know if I could turn it around,

I questioned people who loved me,

I was as angry as can be,

I couldn’t see the friends who were standing by me,

Blinded I couldn’t see,

You hurt me and I struggle,

Enough to fix the broken puzzle,

Ached to the point where i had to start over ,

My self esteem/ worth and the work isn’t for her,

It hurts to feel the pain,

I admit it and let it fall like rain,

Washed my sins of the pain I may of caused ,

Trying to move on cause life doesn’t have a pause. 

Insecurities

Insecurities 

I overthink till my head explodes,

Sometimes you drag on the load,

Ive heard the voices that test me,

The pain that no one else can see,

Ive written them down,

Those hurtful words make me frown,

Im confident but they hurt me to the core,

Sometimes its non stop and more,

I may not be strong,

But I know those insecurities last long,

Im fighting an ongoing battle,

With emotional cattle.

people will test you.

time will test you, make you bend in break,
make you question those close to you and make you ache,
people will test your patience faith and over time,
have you in pain and crying and have you writing rhymes,

people take sides and make you wonder,
as you cry and ponder,
the dark side of humanity,
as they question your sanity.

Sunset

anger is the dark side of the sun,
rough moments have begun,
trials test the warm waters making it cool,
intense emotions like a whirlpool,

hints of lights spark hope,
whispering winds how do i cope,
timeless moments ongoing visions,
as it burns through its incisions.

Sometimes

sometimes life doesn't turn out how you've planned,
people test you to the point that you can't stand,
and people may hate you for no reason,
as you change with every season,

sometimes life won't give you the write cards,
and you might lose your guard,
sometimes people may hate you,
but they cant keep you feeling blue,

my heart will remain strong through the hate,
you can be mean and I will ache,
time will reveal the true person behind your mask,
and the truth will  bed revealed, as they ask.

Visions

I’m stuck in the past,

Dear god why does it last,

I re-opened the demons the haunt my fears,

As the demons drank my tears ,

I seem to go in a circle endless pain ,

The storm that hit me like rain ,

I’m aching as the strength pulls me through ,

Mending my soul as life comes a vision you .