some time ago

Here a some poems I’ve wrote. Along  time ago.

Dedicated to my 2 brothers .


The title of this segment is called lessons learned.

Contents
-words I couldn’t say 
-yesterday 
-steps 
-behind what was 

Words I couldn’t say

As my heart lays in silence, I close my eyes,

Frozen in fear I don’t have the tears to cry,

Scared for it to end,

I just need a friend,

Lost in the memories yesterdays,

Lost in the moments haze,

My heart and head are split in two,

Heaven only knows if it's you,

I don't know how to find the sanctuary of my heart,

When my mind is taring me all apart,

I want you but times will change,

But maybe it has all rearranged,

My agony to end ,

To end a friend,

A journey we travelled together,

to find stopping point of forever,

Maybe I need more days,

To find my ways ,

To the answer the god forsaken question on my mind,

Not to live in the past of a rewind.

Yesterday

It seemed like only yesterday my problems were right in front of me,

Now there likes lessons ahead and the past fears set me free,

Yesterday i was hidden in the dark,

But now lives different like a walk in the park,

Time keeps on going it won't stop for me,

But it seemed only yesterday time was not letting me be,

I've travelled  so far ,

Yet i seemed to have left everything ajar,

It seemed only yesterday,

My fears were standing a face away,

Yet its been months and even years,

I've overcome my fears,

Steps

It's been many miles, i've walked amongst the pain,

So much it seems to match the amount of rain,

I've traveled so far, you could say i've crossed barriers,

So much you would think it wouldn't be enough to carry her,

The steps seems progress into miles,

And my thoughts gather into piles,  

But the journey doesn't end,

But the bridges don't mend,

My feet can barely carry the weight of what once was my sorrow,

But it brought me to a stronger tomorrow,

With steps and wisdom behind me,

I'm a stronger person than who i wanted to be.

Behind what was..

The past was before,

But i always wanted more,

More, time to fix the mistakes,

More , time to heal the aches,

But that was the past,

Behind what was , it doesn't last,

Its over and done with , there's no more,

Changes i'll just let it rain and pour,

Revisiting the pain  , won't mend the past,

Trying to change it will just make it last,

But Ignoring the feeling won't make  it go away ,

But keeping it , is just making it stay,

Behind is what your leaving in the past,

Nothing stays and nothing lasts,

Agony heals and pain fades,

Nothing permanent nothing shades.