I don’t know

I don’t wanna hold you back,
Just thinking like that gives me a heart attack,
I don’t wanna be the reason why,
Your here forever mummified,

I don’t know if it’s good when I want it bad,
I have feeling against it and I’m so sad,
Cause I don’t know if it’s right,
To be with you another night

When you can’t

When you can’t have who you want in life,
It’s like someone slashed you with s knife,
Your heart becomes sore,
And your faith is no more,

When your happy but not so content,
And you need someone to vent,
About how much you want it bad,
And you can’t and it’s so sad,

Maybe it’s not meant to be ,
And I wish he could just have me ,
Maybe it’s not going to be ,
And I can’t can’t seem to see,

Why it isn’t the way I want (him)
And why the chances are so slim

Soothing

A new morning star,
Gazing from a far ,
Bright lights and shining bright,
Soothing all through the night ,

Dark clouds cover the sky,
Shade me from doom so high,
Brave clouds soar over me,
Internal light sets me free ,

Rain falls from the roof top,
Strong forces never stop,
Dark and light spiral round,
Echoing the same sound

Over thinking 🤔

Rapid thoughts in my head,

Replaying every word I said , 

I hear distorted voices ,

Making unclear choices ,

I hate hearing stuff that is unsaid ,

I changed the truth in my head , I can’t remember the truth and a lie ,

And all the reasons why,

I change the words and over think things,

That people say and detach the strings,

I hate it when the words jumble in my head ,

All the stuff people said.