Mind twister

My good friend is an alcoholic and drug addict,

a girl I know committed suicide for mind havoc , 

My friend group is a mixture of good and bad,

Bipolar and manic even sad,

But I’m just as good and bad as everyone else,

I’m my worst enemy than drugs itself,

It’s a twister of mind trauma,

Constant internal drama ,

Words take over my head,

As substances take over others instead,

SH takes me at its power,

When people are begging for the next hour ,

Of a drink or a smoke,

And I still remember the bandages that soak,

The pain of me and the world,

Everyone’s ship will turn.

A recipe for Prince Charming

A recipe for Prince Charming 

I still have all the confidence I had maybe even more,

I want a guy who’s fun like before,

Someone different from the past,

Fun yet I want  it to last,

Someone who makes me

Blush,

Gives me tingles and makes my blood rush,

Someone who beats to the rhythm of my heart,

Who soothes me when I’m torn apart,

There’s no Prince Charming,

And to me it’s not disheartening,

 But wouldn’t it be nice,

to have the magical and spice,

Of a love meant for you,

Forever bonded enter-twined us Two.  

The real deal

The Real deal

Life’s not a fairytale ,

No god mother to soothe you when you wail,

No magic to make your night,

No prince to hold you tight,

No story meant just for you,

No happy song when your blue,

In life there’s no magic dust,

And many dresses aren’t a must,

And no castles and no jewels,

And no place to rule,

Just me ,myself and I,

And yourself when you cry,

No guaranteed happy ending,

No magic to help cure mending,

But life isn’t a story set in stone,

No magic sparks to soothe yourself alone. 

Love riddles

Deep down inside,

I dried your tearless tears when you cried,

I held your hand through the pain,

Made you smile as the pain remained ,

I fell hard for you,

And my heart feels broken in two,

And when life was hard I felt I loved you,

But now I’m lost in the blue,

Cause nothing feels the same,

When I thought it was real and it’s just a game,

When I fell for you too,

I thought you loved me like I love you.

Follow wherever the bridge leads you

Follow wherever the bridge leads you

When opportunities give you a second chance,

Take that last glance,

At the life and the memories before you,

Reminisce before you start a new,

Take things with a grain of salt,

Not everything is your fault,

Find where you belong and own it,

When life finds you don’t quit,

And when the time comes fly,

Don’t let time pass you by,

Soar through the opportunities at hand,

Why sit when you can stand.

Heart juggle

Heart juggle

I give it my all,
To watch my feelings fall, to see the emotion from a reflection,
That won’t give back , it’s just tension,

And when I feel it’s given deep,
All words and all I meant and I keep,
True to my heart , but it’s like a dart,
Bounces back nonstop, like an abstract work of art,

I hurt like real,
Knowing what I feel ,
But I hate constantly feeling like I’m juggling my heart,
Emotionally being torn apart.

Then and now

Then and now

Times aren’t the same,
Yet it’s still the same game,
The feeling between us is mutual,
But the feeling is unusual,

We speak at night,
But above me as I look up at the stars at night ,
I fear a spark in the air,
A strong passion that once was but isn’t there,

It rolls over and over in my mind,
As the answer is still hard to find,
What would become of two souls,
Will it be separate of one whole.

Treading angel

As I see you treading to stay sober,
Life is pulling you under as it takes over,
Your fighting a long battle ,
With the past pulling you like cattle,

It’s hunger you crave,
Fight back and be brave,
The treading keeps you near,
But love and family is what you keep dear,

Find peace within you and not something to cosume,
When life mixes with it , it causes your doom,

As your treading water life pulls you down,
Everyone around you turns their smile into a frown,
As i watch my treading angel ,
Life is a constant war fighting with danger.

to all those who disagree

When people tell me I cant

Im fighting harder like a mile rant,

When people tell me im weak,

Ill show you Im not hear the words I speak,

Im a hard worker and I try hard,

As I stand out like a wild card,

When people fuel me with hate,

Watch all the miracles I can create,

And when people fill me with despair,

I know people that care,

And even when people disagree,

I stand on what I believe,

And when people say things about me that are wrong.

Ill prove to you that im 10 times as strong.

Every Inch Leads to a Mile

Every step forward takes you closer,

Even when life feels like a bulldozer,

My intuition leads me forward to the goal,

Even when there are many holes,

I continue to move towards little victories,

Despite the world contradictories,

I fight hard despite the whispers that say I cant,

I defy all odds that preach their rant,

I was given a leap I’m making stepping stones,

Creating a new place into my home,

Making inches into a mile,

Gathering my knowledge into a greater pile.

Shades of spectrum

Shades of Spectrum

To put it simple I thought I was my own unique brand,
Then I came across a different land,
To a place where everyone seems like me,
And a place to feel included and free,

But part of me seems to dread the feeling,
Of a inclusive place it’s not so surrealing,
But deep down inside I always knew I was different,
But now life feels coherent,

I feel like a clone of the same character,
Different name but same editor ,
wanting to stand out , yet fit in,
Has been more of a karma than a blessed sin,

I can’t stand having everyone like me,
But I’m trying to figure out what I’m supposed to be.

Brave

when life gets tough,
remember all the times you thought were rough,
life seems to flow uncontrollably,
and you observe and learn knowingly ,

you don't have to have the strength in you,
remember all the things you've learned and gain too,
fight towards what you believe in,
when life is full of trials are sins,

so don't fight with violence and words,
fly high and soar like a bird,
be brave and have the courage with in you,
when the night turns the sky bright blue.

Live with no regrets

Live with no regrets 

Live the life you want to live,

Get things and give ,

Learn to accept things that can’t change,

When the world is constantly trying to rearrange,

Be a friend and a shoulder,

When life gives you or a friend a Boulder,

Believe in what you feel,

And don’t forget to be you cause it’s real ,

Make mistakes that’s okay,

Everyday is a learning experience in every way,

Don’t change for anyone and don’t look down,

Believe in yourself and what’s around,

Know that no matter what’s inside,

You don’t have to hide,

find the truth inside,

And let yourself be your guide. 

The more you know

The more you know

I’ve had high highs and low lows,
As I’ve travelled through many thresholds,
My mind has become stronger,
As I’ve traveled longer,

My heart fell in and out of love.
Soaring above and below like a dove,
My emotions like a storm yet like light rain,
In the past I’ve experienced most pain,

Life seems never ending,
As my mind and soul is forever mending ,
The more you know,
The easy it is to grow.

Spectrum

Spectrum

I may feel things to the extreme,
Like viewing life from a balance beam,
Conflicts are like another language,
Causing my mind to feel an emotional anguish,

And people may not understand me,
But believe me, I view the world differently,
Feelings may hit me hard,
And the world isn’t my backyard,

I’m on unfamiliar ground,
Listening to my personal sound,
But if you can understand how I feel,
Even if it’s crazy , unrealistic that’s how I view what’s real,

And maybe you will never understand me,
But that’s how I view life to be.

New Outlook

New Outlook 

As i look out from a new glance,
I feel so alive like I've gotten a new chance.
my mind is exercising new opportunities,
in a world with a new community,

My world seems different , yet i feel complete,
new outlooks but i won't admit defeat,
my inspiration is a bud of a blooming flower,
a new sense of an uplifting power,

emotions flow like a new light,
no more weakness like kryptonite,
but I'm stronger like a roaring star,
as long as i continue to travel far.

Farewell

Farewell

Time flys by,
Memories never fade , despite the tears we cry,
People come and go,
Knowledge grows the more we know,

But people leave like butterflies flying from your hand,
They disappear like when you sink in the sand,
The pain lingers but you heal in time,
As the words fill you up  and the rhymes,

 Help you through the day ,
When you don’t know what to say,
And when life gets you down,
You can always turn it around.

Kite

Kite

I worry I might digress,
From my plan but I am strong enough to confess,
I’m scared of what might come,
But I’ve come so far to succumb,

To my fears and not try it out,
Maybe I’m afraid I won’t know what it’s about,
But I try to remain strong,
Cause I know I’ve held on for this long,

I’m a kite scared to soar,
Ambitious but nervous to want more,
I just have to loosen the strings ,
And accept the things,

I’m scared off and let them be,
Cause I can only be me,
And when I need to take a chance,
Don’t hold back and take a second glance,

Cause your ready despite the voice,
Telling you ,you can’t but you have a choice ,
Dog back down , start to fly,
And figure out the answers to your questions why.

Had to let it go

I feel run down,

Drained like as my smile turns to a frown,

My whole body shakes,

As my internal mind aches,

I’m drained as all my life seemed to wash away ,

With each minute of every day,

My mind wanders lost in my head,

Wanting to be somewhere else instead, 

As my heart clenches my chest,

I hope and pray for the best,

I just had to let it go,

So I can admit how I feel so I know.

Run away

Run away

I won’t run away ,
I’ll stay there and fight back any day,
The light may seem far away,
But my motors on replay and I constantly say,

I’m brave , strong and true,
And I couldn’t be anything without you,
So I won’t run anymore ,
Cause I’m tired of excuses and avoiding the open doors,

I’ll fight till my mind gives out,
Until my voices turns from a whisper to a shout,
I’ll run till my body is insync with my mind,
To find balance and release the bind,

Of the emotional baggage ,
Through the pain and the wreckage.

New chapter same story

New chapter , same story

This portion of the story has come to an end,
I grown and changed so much , I tend,
To forget when my chapter is done,
And that I’m the hero against the antagonist, I won,

My emotions were the enemy in the chapters that won my battles,
Dragging the pain around like cattle,
But this chapter I have finally found my missing piece,
The best way to release,

My emotions in a healthy way,
Speaking it instead of the other things before that day,
It’s the same story with a new chapter in mind,
With the hero stronger yet somehow it’s hard to find,

The inspiration she’s gathered along the way,
To move on instead of stay.

Collide

Collide

Don’t hide the feeling,
When life gets you down you must  admit to healing,
When you hide,
The emotions collide,

Life gets you down,
Turn it around .
And when emotions come out with no control,
Remember you can take toll,

Of the situation in front of you ,
When your down and blue,
And when you hide the feeling,
It’s like your dragging and life is surrealing ,

So don’t back down,
When your down and your smile turns to a frown,
Admit to the courage within you,
When you can put life back together like glue

Scars represent the journey

Scars represent the journey 

The scars on my body represents a map,

Full of emotions and mishaps,

The pain represents the rest stops,

Like the little dots that look like raindrops ,

The scars show the many times I turned around,

And all the times I try to go another route,

It shows all the miles I’ve walked,

And all the places I went that were blocked,

It made me strong enough to take challenges,

And to admit and live with the damages,

It made me realize there’s no true way to get there,

Cause the scars represents how I got there and where. 

The beat of my heart

The beat of my heart 

My heart beats like the constant drum beat,

As I carry my strength throughout my body to my feet ,

The sound of the tempo increases and slows down in pace,

As the emotions show and reflect on my face,

My head counts the beats and the rests ,

Consistently in sync with my breath,

My heart pumps like a base ,

In an equal number in pace,

The way my heart beats,

Imitates the sun rays when the sun heats,

Down , my heart dances up octaves ,

Dancing the motions of the waves

Just breathe

Just Breathe

Take one step and take that chance,
But before you go, take one last glance,
At what your leaving behind,
And that you can’t rewind,

But you can take the lessons from
Before with you ,
And the memories stick like
Glue
And remember all the mistakes that made you , you ,
And strive for the things you wanna do,

Don’t hold back take the chance,
When life seems to get hard, so that dance,
And when time seems to go on forever,
Know that you will never sever,

So just take a breather ,
Life isn’t going away and neither,
Is the time you have to grow,
And that’s something to
Learn and know.

A spark of hope

A spark of hope

Before my life seemed like a moonless night,
All alone , lost in plain sight,
But then the light flew past my sky,
And reasons brought some clarity into why,

My life seemed like a dark place,
And I couldn’t recognize my face,
My mind seemed like a traffic jam,
I felt lost and damned,

But when  the spark flew through my dark sky,
All the reasons why,
I never gave in was worth the time,
And all the poems were worth the rhymes,

and now my night sky has light,
Despite my weakness blinding my sight,
There’s a spark of hope lurking in the distance,
As I fight through the resistance.