Halloween greeting

Happy Halloween everyone . Thanks again for reading my poetry blog.

-Caitlin- 

Battle scars

Your the holes that puncture my heart,

Your the one who’s ripped the stitches apart,

If words could kill you stabbed right through me,

I could see the world , You blinded me I can’t see,

If the stars were my hope you turned out the lights,

If the pain wasn’t enough you were the pain and night,

Your the agony that haunts my dreams ,

And the pain that is never as it seems,

If your eyes were the world you cause the tear,

If you were the vision you made it disappear.

If the moon and sun collided together

If the moon and sun collided together,

My heart and yours would be happy forever,

If I left you I would never,

Ever be the same my heart would Sever,

Your the sun when it rises in the rain,

And the rainbow after the pain,

Your the sunset on a warm beach,

The warm touch of your hands when we reach, 

Your the cool breeze on a hot day,

The best person in every way ,

Your the best friend I’ve ever had ,

You lift me when i am sad,

If the moon and sun  collided together ,

My heart and yours would be happy forever,

If I left you I would never,

Ever be the same my heart would sever 

Haunting Hour ( Halloween)

It’s dark at night,

A scary sight,

Dark clouds and dark skies,

Pumpkins carved and witches flies,

It’s Halloween it’s darkest night,

Candy , costumes, scary treats,

Nasty things and dirty feet,

Games and parties all around,

Creepy crawlers ,echoing sounds,

Scary movies , late nights,

Dark closets and scary lights,

Haunting shadows lurk at night,

Paralyzing you in sight,

It’s Halloween the terror hour,

Consuming you with all its power 

Give thanks

I’m blessed for the things in life I have,

Even if it was cut in half,

I’m fortunate for a family that loves me,

And a mother that helped me see,

The true me behind the flaws and imperfections ,

The true me behind my reflection,

I’m grateful for the friends I know,

And all the people that showed,

Me how to survive and thrive,

The best gift was the five,

Greatful things in life,

Behind the pain and the strife ,

My prayers became a reality,

My hopes are far from me,

The pain brought me to realize,

Nothing is better than to cry,

I’m greatful for the life I possess,

And I confess ,

I’m luckily to have family and friends ,

And all the happiness and the mend,

The strength that’s within me ,

Is stronger than the eyes can see 

They are always there

Their a road map of my life,

The trials and pain and the strife ,

Their the unanswered prayers ,

My inner and outer layers ,

Their the source of my information,

The times I’ve given in to temptation,

The bumps and mistakes down the road,

And the moments that overflowed,

The symbolise the pain and strength ,

Over many great lengths,

They show the way I live ,

And the moments I tried to forgive,

The scars show my pain and heart,

The emptiness and I left apart. 

Pieces of me

I’m nothing like I was before ,

I am the same me ,but worth more,

Yesterday was different from today,

But I’m the same any other way ,

Things change my life for the good and the bad,

Memories and moments make me happy and sad,

But nothing changes me from before and now,

But yet something did , I don’t know ,

To explain the situation on paper,

Because part of me grew and changed like a skyscraper,

My heart and mind changed significantly through the years ,

Despite all the pain and tears,

The peices of me are who I am today,

Even if it was different from who

I was in May,

I’m still me inside and out,

And this is how I came about,

The peices of me,

Became who I am and who I’m meant to be 

The light of the moon

The light from the moon is my safety at night,

It’s my sanctuary ,from the darkness in sight,

The light reminds me , things will past,

And that nothing scary will ever last,

The bright light shines brighter than the darkest night,

It sends me down safe on a peaceful sight ,

It seems like I don’t have to worry at all,

Cause once the night sets and falls ,

All my worries disappear from my eyes,

Nothing can get me , not even the lies ,

The lies that have been said or heard ,

And even the painful things that are absurd,

I can’t hide the darkness at night,

But i can’t shade myself from the sight,

That scares my soul and heart 

Darkness that scares me when I’m

Torn apart. 

To my love

Your amazing inside and out,

You make me scream and shout,

I love your smile and your eyes,

You comfort me when I cry,

You personality is great and you make me laugh ,

You make me feel like 100 when I feel like a half,

You make me feel so full and happy inside ,

You lift me up when I wanna hide,

Everyday you make me feel so special and happy all day,

I want nothing more than to make you feel the same way,

I want you to know how much you mean to me,

Cause you lift me up and make me feel free. 

the answer tree

The center of the universe is the tree,

That separates the river from the sea,

The tree controls the sun and the rain,

The roots that suck up the water and the drain,

The universe has one source ,

The wind in the trees swaying force,

Each leaf represents one soul,

When planted the tree in the hole,

In sway in the wind of happiness and joy,

As it droops with every pain of  a girl and boy,

The tree is the reason for every answer ,

And the soul of a true dancer,

The tree brings only hope and sanctuary,

as each persons message Varys 

The message tree ( photo taken by Caitlin)

Memories

In life we have so many memories we keep ,

So many in fact it’s stored in heaps ,

Heaps of love, happiness , pain and sorrow,

Many good days many bad tomorrows ,

We pray for  good things but we get bad things sometimes ,

It’s not all simple like rhymes ,

We are challenged everyday,

And quoted in everything we say,

We may not have it all good all the time,

But we take every dime ,

And make it a million dollars , something more,

Everything and anyone who walks through our door, 

We carry so much emotion in our life,

Our journey and the strife,

We balance the happiness and the  pain,

And stay strong through the rain,

It may be tough some days ,

But we cherish them in our own ways 

The reason I go so deep

I can’t help how I feel,

It’s so deep , so surreal ,

Sometimes I wonder how it can be real,

The strength of how I feel,

I go so deep,

Like water, it’s Seaps,

I feel so strong , so bizzare,

I question how far,

I go to analyze this,

The thoughts I can’t miss,

I feel so deep I can’t let it go,

I just want you to know,

It’s a powerful feeling to go so deep,

I take a chance and leap. 

Knowing I might take it to far,

But I know I’m that way , that star 

The world

I see suffering, pain and people torn apart,

But I also see beauty and abstract art,

The world shows me sunny and rainy days,

With deep blues and dark greys,

I see hunger , poverty and abuse,

But I see people putting pain to good use,

Making awareness and strength ,

To spread the message to great length,

I see death , sickness and discrimination,

Through cities  countries and our nation,

I see people who can’t get along,

I see people who think they have it all ,

I’ve seen the  happiness and the  pain ,

I’ve seen the sunshine and the rain ,

I’ve been through both good and the  bad,

I’ve experienced the happy and the sad ,

I want a change,

 But I’m worried it shifted an rearranged,

Dedicated to my seal

A friend might not be a person figure,

Your spirit and love make you so much bigger,

No being can make me feel as special as you,

A stuffed animal giving me comfort, who knew,

You may not be able to reply,

But you listen to me and console me when I cry,

You are always there when I need you,

You always know what to do,

When I’m happy or sad,

Your my company when I had,

No one with me ,

As I was blind you help me see,

Your my comfort and my company now and before,

Here and their when I hit the floor,

You remind me that I can have hope,

You encourage me when all I can say is nope,

As I grow older, wiser and stronger,

I may not need you that much longer,

But my heart will always have room for you,

CauSe your my sunshine when I’m blue .

I’m full ( empty ) - inspiration eating disorders awareness

Inspiration eating disorder awareness 

When I look at my myself , staring at my fade,

Tears pouring like rain, arms in an embrace,

My thoughts scatter all over the floor ,

Arms in prayer, I can’t do it anymore ,

Grey skies haunt my shadow in the sun,

Dark shadows take my power I’ve won, 

The voices  compell my sanity ,

The voices in her causes voice profanity,

People judge my body and heart,

Inner thoughts rates me apart,

I’m hidden in the mists of my struggle ,

I’m missing a piece to my puzzle ,

My body is a distorted view,

I’m hiding my pain, if only you knew. 

( drawing and poem made by me ) 

A new day

I wake up every day grateful for a new day,
for how everything thing turns out , no matter what anyone has to say,
For the good moments and the bad that hit my day,
And the painful ones that block my way,

Despite the day the time and the weather,
Every moment I’ll strive for better,
 I may have a rough patch or two,
But everyday I start new,

It will turn out how it turns out,
Even if it’s bad I’ll still shout,
Shout out to a day of good or bad,
I’ll never take it for granted happy or sad

Letters to I

Your nothing like the old you,
Sick like before that’s not new,
Your the same but changed ,
The you but rearranged,

Your a strong person, friend and daughter,
Without the strength and guidance of a father,
Your wounds have healed ,
Your scars have sealed ,

The pain of the past,
The pain you always thought would last,
Your happy , happier than you ever was,
Happy for being you cause,

You have a meaning,
You have feeling,
Yet your happy to be content,
Happy that you can vent ,

In a positive way,
And say what you need to say,
But yet you still get sad,
Even though you wish you never had,

To ever be sad ,
But I’m greatful for what I had

I’m just a .... kid (ADULT)

Maybe it’s hard to be not a kid,
And despite everything I did,
To grow up and become my age,
It leaves a mark like a hint of sage,

I can’t go back to what I was then,
Even if it was safe when ,
I was young and carefree,
I just wanna find the real me,

The real me between the new and the old,
The past and the now turns cold,
When I try to preserve both parts of me,
When I try to connect the two , I can see ,

The before and after me,
The connection of the two I can’t see,
Can the two me’s unite,
Or is one a weakness like kryptonite

Sunkisssd love

Smooth calm waters flow gently through my toes,
the smell of the salty air hits my nose,
Sunny skies and  clouds of blue,
The sensation of you,

Your breath on my neck,
Loving me like what the heck,
Gentle lips kiss me cheek,
As my legs give in weak,

Your tender voice like the breeze in the summer air ,
The sand in my long black hair,
The beautiful sun shining bright ,
As your body hits me , oh so right .

I’m sunkissed loved in the sun,
Nothing but you and fun .

Blue skies

It floats through the sky,
It’s like a bird in my eye,
The clouds move so gently in motion,
Gives me calm ,peace and devotion,

It turns dark  when it rains,
Black and dark greys ,
But it’s white when the sky is blue,
And it just remindes me of you,

How happy I feel when I see you,
As the same when the sky is blue,
The only time it changes,
Is when the sky turns and rearranges,

The sky is so blue,
Standing out is something new

Half of my ❤️

Your my inner being,
My eyes when I’m seeing,
The only thing that means everything,
And the special song I sing,

 As long as I smile,
It won’t take awhile ,
For me to fall in love with you,
As before as we always do,

Your beat rings to my soul,
And with you there is no hole,
In my life and in my heart,
As one we will never be torn apart.

what you put In

Through searching for a reason I found meaning,
From feeling numb I got a feeling,
That although life might be bad some days,
And the sun might be behind it’s rays,

There’s sunshine in every moment ,
You gotta believe and own it,
There’s nothing to fear,
Cause your safe my dear,

There’s dark and light ,
Happy and sad  in sight ,
Opening up better days,
Being able to see lights rays ,

Your happiness is what you put in,
Not about the pain and the sin

Change

Something throbs inside,
I can’t let it go , I can’t hide,
The pain I feel , it aches as I cry,
I don’t know how I can’t deny,

This feeling so different , so new,
And I  really thought ,I thought it through ,
But it’s not as easy as a planned in my head,
It wasn’t word for word like I said,

It’s a change so familiar yet so different from what I’m used to,
But how Something feel so new make me feel not have a clue,
Who I am inside , what I stand for,
As everything changes and I want more and more ,

For it to be easy ,
But it makes me fee queezy,
No matter what happens to me,
It’s not perfect or planned ,nothing is set to be

Behind the smile

It may be rough at times,
but there’s no backing down , no rhymes,
I can’t overlook , I can’t back down,
Through the good and the bad with or without a frown,

The rough times shed many tears down my eyes,
The pain and the hurt and  I feel doesn’t dry,
The pain inside my heart ,
As long as the Agony rips me apart .

What you didn’t know

Your not the same person everyday,
Ever moment changes you in every which way,
You grow you change you become you,
You discover you Figure out what you didn’t know,

Your mind becomes wiser and stronger,
as your descision get better and your tolerance longer,
Your inner being becomes alive,
The further and further you strive,

The light shines through you everyday,
As you know who you are and what to say,
The knowledge and faith is with in you ,
As true as the skies are when they are blue

Leap

I’m one with the way I feel,
And the images are so surreal ,
The pattern of life is so intense,
So invisionary I’m on the fence,

The best gift is the gift seen not given,
So real my sins have been forgiven,
Life has trials and tribulations,
Nice moments and stops and
Stations

Pain and out free to come home,
Serenity closed in this small dome,
I’m trying to come free,
Starting with me

Disappointment

Many people disappoint me ,
Maybe not with their words ,but I can see ,
The lies through the truth inside,
All the dark secrets they hide ,

Maybe I’m going crazy,
And my mind is unclear and hazy,
But maybe some parts are true,
The pain And disappointment towards you,

And although your support me,
I’m blinded by what I can’t see,
I’m slowly lost in a disappointing season,
As I distrust your reason.

Pray (for Las Vegas)

I knelt down to pray,
It’s something I do everyday,
But today was different from before,
I knew it meant something more,

My eyes shed tears ,
Cause in all my years,
Of praying for forgiveness for me,
I was blinded I couldn’t see,

The pain of others around me,
During the shooting I couldn’t see,
The struggle they faced,
Cause I was stuck in my place,

So I knelt down to pray,
For someone other than me today,
I closed my eyes and hoped and prayed,
That nothing will ever happen again like what happened today .

las vegas shooting (Poem)

This poem is a Dedication to all the people who are injured and
Who have passed away during the Las Vegas shooting. My prayers are with everyone
involved and family and friends.
🙏

The tears that fall,
Are for all,
The people involved in Las Vegas tragedy,
That the killer had no apathy,

Many lives lost and many scared for life,
Leaving behind children and their wife,
Many life’s ended here,
It hurts loosing someone dear,

Some people in the hospital in bad condition,
Many in dismission,
Many families torn apart,
Lives broken where to start,

Pain, Agony, panic and loss,
To lose anyone is a horrible cost

I don’t know

I don’t wanna hold you back,
Just thinking like that gives me a heart attack,
I don’t wanna be the reason why,
Your here forever mummified,

I don’t know if it’s good when I want it bad,
I have feeling against it and I’m so sad,
Cause I don’t know if it’s right,
To be with you another night

When you can’t

When you can’t have who you want in life,
It’s like someone slashed you with s knife,
Your heart becomes sore,
And your faith is no more,

When your happy but not so content,
And you need someone to vent,
About how much you want it bad,
And you can’t and it’s so sad,

Maybe it’s not meant to be ,
And I wish he could just have me ,
Maybe it’s not going to be ,
And I can’t can’t seem to see,

Why it isn’t the way I want (him)
And why the chances are so slim

Soothing

A new morning star,
Gazing from a far ,
Bright lights and shining bright,
Soothing all through the night ,

Dark clouds cover the sky,
Shade me from doom so high,
Brave clouds soar over me,
Internal light sets me free ,

Rain falls from the roof top,
Strong forces never stop,
Dark and light spiral round,
Echoing the same sound

Over thinking 🤔

Rapid thoughts in my head,

Replaying every word I said , 

I hear distorted voices ,

Making unclear choices ,

I hate hearing stuff that is unsaid ,

I changed the truth in my head , I can’t remember the truth and a lie ,

And all the reasons why,

I change the words and over think things,

That people say and detach the strings,

I hate it when the words jumble in my head ,

All the stuff people said.