What will the new year bring

What will the new year bring

What will the new year bring,
Will it bring happiness and choir That sings ,
Will the new year bring new friends,
Will they last till the end,

Will opportunities come my way,
Will my skies be less grey,
Will tomorrows be better,
Like a consistent change in weather,

So will the new year be life changing,
As I continue to do some rearranging,
Will this year bring hope to me and everyone I love,
Especially you watching me above .

Dear angel

Dear angel

Can you see the fireworks up there,
Aren’t they beautiful, I can’t help but stare,
But can you enjoy the new year as much as I,
Or are you missing me too much ,
Don’t cry ,

Is the view of the fireworks amazing from the sky,
I wish you were here, ride by my side,
Can you see the optimism of the new year,
I’ll be okay you don’t have to fear,

Dear angel May your new year be pain free,
I hope your happy as I wish for me,
Let your star shine bright,
Through the new year night .

There’s always time

There’s always time

It’s never too late,
So don’t hesitate,
To change a thought , an action or a choice,
You have the strength and the voice ,

You can always change your mind,
Change your plans and you
Might find,
That life gets better before the new year,
As you listen in near ,

So remember there’s always time,
For a message behind a rhyme.

When the ball drops

When the ball drops

When the ball drops at
Midnight,
Let my heart be freed of pain and fright,
As the ball falls each second down to zero,
Let my friends who suffered become hero’s ,

Let the people who left me become free,
Let my sorrow for them heal ,so I can be me,
As the year ends,
Let my heart mend ,

As the people in heaven rest easy,
As new year comes through breezy

Mental illness ( we matter )

Mental illness (We matter)

We aren’t something to disregard,
even though life maybe hard,
We are human none the less,
Maybe our emotions tainted or digressed,

We maybe judged by the world and society ,
But life should be understanding of this variety ,
 Cause we all struggle to feel something,
Some just feel like their nothing ,

Family try to understand,
As we try to lend our helping hand,
We try and look from their point of view ,
So can they look from yours too,

Mental illness ,we matter none the less,
I hate the feeling of being kicked aside I confess.

You opened my eyes

I will always love you no matter what,

No if, ands or but’s ,

In this life or another,

I will always consider you my first real lover ,

I breathe in the air,

The wind brushes me and your always there,

Your sweet laugh  always makes me smile ,

I replay it I haven’t heard it in a while ,

You opened up my heart,

I’m able to soar not fall apart,

You’ve brought light, 

through the dim dark night. 

Pray

Let the wind carry my kisses from me to you,

Let the rain represent the tears I feel when I’m blue,

As the sun comes up each day,

Your always part of prayers when I say,

Let him feel happy and safe inside,

Let him know there’s no reason to hide,

Comfort him in times of loss,

Remember our paths will cross ,

And night I stare out the window to the moon ,

Wondering why you had to leave so soon,

I sit and pray,

That your at peace each end of the day. 

Back to happy

I’m starting to feel back to my normal self,

as I develop internal wealth,

I realized it’s okay to cry,

But I’m gonna move forward and fly,

Life without you will be painful and sad,

But I’m gonna focus on all the things I did with you that made me feel glad ,

I’ll miss your sweet heart,

But I’ll create self love while we’re apart, 

I know your always with me,

Even if I can’t see ,

Your presence I feel your glow,

And in the sun and stars you glow. 

As I reflect

As I Reflect 

As the year comes to an end,

I remember all the people who are my friends ,

I reflect on all the mistakes I’ve made through out the past,

And remind myself they won’t last,

I focus on the goals I didn’t accomplish for next year ,

I remember that their nearer than near ,

I believe that it will get better,

As seasons change like weather,

I make relationship better than ever,

I make family last forever,

I try harder than yesterday,

To remind myself I’m a strong person today. 

Love story

Love story

When we met we were at dark times ,
Before I was stable and writing rhymes,
We met and I was chasing someone else,
Instead of focusing on myself,

But then we started talking ,
At Dunkin doughnuts we started walking,
You asked for my number,
I wasn’t sure, I wanted another,

Person who I put my tears into ,
But then you made me realize what happens when one and one makes two,
And that’s how it started you and me,
For a long time we were as happy as can be,

Almost like a fairytale , two different souls,
Completing each other making each other whole.

All the things I wish for you

All the things I wish for you

I hold my head up high,
I’m finally at peace with not knowing the reason why,
But I pray for you everyday ,
That things get better for you in some way,

I look up at the sky,
Knowing your somewhere soaring high,
My heart hurts but is in peace,
With your rest I feel release ,

Some days are harder without you,
But I’m finally getting the clue,
That your always with me in my heart , in my rhymes,
And in my prayers at times ,

I wish nothing but smiles and happiness for you,
Make life make you better , so you can start a new,
May heaven bring you serenity to your soul,
Fill you up and make you whole.

Pool of tears

Pool of tears

Every drop is a memory of us,
It flows In the wind and gust,
The tears trickle down like the flow of the river,
Shining reflectively through the water as it shimmers ,

Tears of sadness tears of hope,
Through pain it’s how I cope,
Tears of happiness, tears of love,
As they travel from condensation above ,

If your on a boat through the river of tears ,
Catching hope , soothing fears ,
Tears that fall are for you,
In all that you do.

Sometimes

Sometimes

Sometimes I wonder if anyone will ever love me like you,
If anyone could ever love me as you do ,
I stare into the mirror each day ,
Wondering why you just had to leave that way,

I wonder if anyone could be a good friend like you,
Listen to me and encourage me like you do,
I stare at myself and wonder why,
People aren’t like you , sigh,

I question others wonder why,
They aren’t as supportive when I cry ,
I wonder why life seems inconclusive,
When people are so intrusive .

Half of my heart

Half of my heart

If it’s dark, I’ll adjust with no light,
If the sun is down , I’ll be fine with night,
But there are somethings That aren’t easy to do,
Like realizing I don’t have you,

If the sky is grey, I’ll make a rainbow,
If it’s dark and lonely, I’ll make it glow,
But half of my heart isn’t ready to admit your gone,
So quick like night to dawn,

If i cry, I can remember to smile,
If I’m lost , I’ll find my way while,
I can’t seem to find my way around the fact your away,
It’s like magic there once than gone away .

So many things

So many things

There are so many things I wish I could tell you,
No language can fill the words I wanna say to you,
I didn’t have enough time,
So now I have to say it in rhymes,

There are not enough gestures of love,
Many even more ways above,
There’s not enough time to say those things,
Like a message the choir sings ,

There’s no limit to how I feel,
I want you to know it’s real,
I wish I could tell you more,
But my ability seemed to have closed it doors,

I’m sorry I didn’t have time,
To say enough of I wanted in rhymes .

Dear god

Dear god

Keep him safe and sound,
Tell him, people are thinking of him from the ground,
And let him know I’m safe and sound,
Just missing him being on the ground,

God tell him I’m okay,
But I do miss him day by day,
Tell him I’m doing fine,
Remind him , life’s Devine,

Tell lee I’m thankful for his love,
Down here and above,
Tell him i wish him the best,
And a calm peaceful rest.

Mahal kita I love you

Mahal Kita ( I ❤️U)

Your soul lives on ,
Way after your gone,
I love you and miss you,
Everything you are and everything you do,

Your heart beats like my favorite song,
On replay , let the tune play on and on,
Your embrace is the best,
Better than all the rest,

You by my side forever,
Love like this won’t sever,
Mahal kita , I love you,
Through and through.

Butterfly garden

Butterfly garden

They say when  a butterfly land near you ,
it’s someone visiting you from heaven , i believe its true ,
I’ve seen so many lately near me,
It’s nice to know you still visit me,

I just wanna spend a day with a butterfly by my side,
To remind me of you and that your my guide,
I could spend forever in a butterfly garden ,
To brighten my day when it feels darkened,

I could spend time just siting next to you,
Having you float from flower to flower ,flying through ,
I just can’t stay away from butterflies,
It’s like relief , soothing my tears dry .

A year without you

A year without you

I hate to start the new year without you,
Your the only one who seems to know what I’ve been through,
It hurts everyday that your Not  here,
Even though people say you’ll always be near,

It’s not the same feeling,
Life’s complicated, yet surrealing,
I can’t imagine love the same without you,
Life seems impossible ,what I can do ,

I just don’t just miss our good times,
It’s not enough to live In rhymes,
I miss your phone calls,
I just miss it all.

Old and grey

I thought we would be friends till we were old and grey,

Living life to the fullest day by day,

Surfing life’s waves together,

Living life through and through forever,

And if it didn’t work out we would always be friends,

Till the world reached its end,

And if time stop going,

Our friendship would still be flowing,

No friendship shined this bright,

Like a lighthouse in a foggy night,

A perfect place where it’s you and me,

Where we can be truly free. 

More than words

More than words

Your voice is a sweet melody,
As your laugh is a sweet symphony,
Your aura is a warm embrace,
Looking at your sweet face ,

I imagine us walking together ,
I thought we would walk forever,
But things end,
As time mends ,

And days seem longer without you ,
Who knew the sky could still be so blue,
Without your heart lingering in the sunlight,
Your always there in the moonlight.

Blue neighborhood

Blue neighborhood

When I’m lonely at night,
And paralyzed with fright,
I wake up and think of you,
And things piece together like glue,

And when days go by,
I constantly think of you and I,
And I remember all the happy times,
Written and preserved in my rhymes  ,

The neighborhood seems hollow,
Filled with emptiness and sorrow,
Although there are so many people around,
It’s like cricket sounds,

And I think of you above,
And I remember your the one I love .

This year taught me this

This year taught me this .

This year taught me so much,

It taught me not to clutch ,

Negative relationships and feelings,

Cause life is so much more surrealing,

Life taught me how to feel,

And put myself first , I know it’s real ,

It taught me to be strong,

And it’s ok if it doesn’t last that long ,

It also taught me to be a friend,

To support them till the end,

It taught me to open my eyes,

and remember it’s okay to cry,

And one thing I can’t forget,

Something I won’t regret,

This year taught me to love,

Those around me , myself and those above. 

This year

This year. 

As the year ends ,

Parts of me continue to mend,

People come and go ,

The more I know the more I grow ,

The more questions I answer ,

The more my heart becomes a dancer,

Life isn’t a walk in the park,

And life isn’t as rough as bark,

But life does have its ups and downs ,

As you have smiles and frowns,

But this year taught me so much,

It had its own special touch,

Despite the pain,

And the rain,

Despite the hard times ,

Life had its rhymes . 

Reach out your hand for me

Reach out your hand for me

When I’m down, will you reach out your hand,
Help me smile , help me stand,
And when the day seems grey ,
Will you stay with me another day ,

And at night when I’m scared,
Will you hold me so I know your
always there,
Even when your not here,
I can feel you near,

And when I’m down,
Will you turn my sadness around,
Will you pray for me as I pray for you,
Pray for luck in everything you do.

Glass heart

Glass heart 

When you left you took a piece of me,

A part of me, that you will cherish forever you will see,

My face in the reflection on the glass,

That Replays our moments of the past,

The small trinket represents our time,

Our stories in rhymes,

It shows how much you mean to me,

And how strong love can be,

Let the heart shine in the sun,

Life with a part of me has just begun,

Let it shine through your heart to mine,

Is love sweet gentle and Devine. 

All I want this year

all I want this year

I hope to see your face,
And give you a warm embrace,
Although you are gone away,
Your like the sun that brightens up my day,

I hope to see your smile,
As I am waiting while,
Your warm touch soothes me,
There’s no where I rather be,

I hope to have you in my arms,
Glowing in your charm,
And although your gone,
You always rise like dawn.

Edge of the earth

Edge of the earth

I constantly gaze up at the sky,
To hopefully see your face and answer my questions, why,
I see the clouds move through the sky,
As the breeze is like a kiss on my cheek, such a high,

The sky has never been so blue,
It’s bright and beautiful just like you,
The wind has never been so in sync,
And I can’t believe it but I stop and think ,

What’s it like to be way up there,
Are you riding the clouds without a care,
Is time a non issue ,
And are the clouds as soft as tissue,

Is the sky everything we imagined it would be,
Would it be perfect you and me,
Life seems so perfect when I look at the sky,
You make me smile as I watch you fly

Drug awareness

(Drug awareness )

Being stuck on exstasy,
Is a dependency,
Being addicted to molly,
Might make you feel jolly,

But it’s an endless cycle,
An internal rival,
It may seem like a great feeling,
But life is passing you by depleting ,

It tares you apart,
Breaks your families heart,
Causes life long effects,
Friends might reject,

So remember it’s a struggle ,
It’s hard but it’s a puzzle ,
Help is always there,
And know people always care.

Colorless

Colorless

The thought that I can’t call you at night only makes nights seem longer,
  Despite all the tears , I try and remain stronger,
My heart feels like something’s wrong,
Cause all the music on my playlist seems to  last so long,

Music seem to lose its meaning,
My body seems to be lost in feeling,
My eyes haven’t seen a sunny day,
If only things could of gone another way,

I can’t fill the void that comes with my sadness,
And the color seems to have its blandness ,
My ache never felt so sad,
I’ve never felt so bad.

The Gucci (Mane ) to my heart

The Gucci(Mane) to my heart 

Your the constant beat of my crazy life’s song,

Your the autocorrect when I spell things  wrong,

My strength when my mind fails,

My happy when my soul wails,

Your my smile when sadness comes around,

The addictive beat to the popular sound,

My satisfaction when I’m empty inside,

And my hope when I’m full of denies ,

Your my reassurance when life gives me reasons not to believe,

My encouragement when I doubt I can achieve,

And your my heart when life seems hallow,

And my voice when it’s hard to swallow. 

What you taught me

What you taught me 

When the sky is grey,

You helped me see things the better way,

When I was sad,

You made me realize how to be grateful and glad,

When life tested my patience and sanity,

You reminded me to look past vanity ,

And when the world seemed incomplete,

You told me to never admit defeat,

You taught me to be strong,

And that the road isn’t bad or that long,

When you have some one by your side,

And you taught me never to hide, 

You brought me back to a happy place,

And you taught me to be me and embrace. 

Someday

Someday 

When I grow old and pass away,

Will you be there to hold my hand another day,

Will you be the same man I loved,

Down here and above,

Someday will we live as a couple,

Live together and cuddle,

Someday will we find peace,

In this difficult world , will we find release,

When will the time come till I see you again,

Where will it be and when,

Someday it will be us two,

The way life was when I had you. 

What’s it like up there

What’s it like up there

Is heaven everything we imagined it would be,
Did you get your mansion by the sea,
Are you hanging out with all your favorite stars,
Are you at peace with your inner wars,

has heaven open your mind and give you peace,
Can you finally release,
All the pain you had inside ,
Can you finally live and not hide,

Is it scary to go,
To heaven and not know,
How much you could of done,
Now that your gone,

What’s heaven like,
Is your weaknesses no longer your kryptonite.

Part of me

Part of me 

When you left my side,

My heart felt like it had to hide,

Hide away from the pain,

But I decided to let it out like rain,

Part of my heart will always be with you,

It will bring you clarity in everything you do,

When your up there you will have a piece of me,

To help you rest easy and set you free ,

Part of me will always be yours ,

You help open so many doors,

Your heart will always be with me,

As long as your happy I feel free,

A part of me will live up there,

With you and everyone that I care,

I will pray for you to be with me,

When I’m sad you will help me see,

The light you’ve given me,

I’m gonna be okay, with you eyes watching me. 

You have so much love to give

You have so much love to give 

You give so much love,

Now your sharing that with those above,

You make so many people smile,

All those people who haven’t in while,

You’ve changed so many lives for the better,

with your loving positive effort,

Your heart is so beautiful inside,

I’m blessed to be by your side,

And at night you soothe people fears,

Dry peoples tears,

Cause you give so much of yourself to others,

You were stronger than so many others ,

My heart hurts but your always there,

Won’t ever leave and that’s why I care,

You give so much time and heart,

Even when we’re apart. 

Your on my mind

Your on my mind 

It’s hard to think that i have to go on with out you,

It’s unbearable but I’ll make it through,

My mind constantly wonders what it would be like,

If everything in life went right,

Then life would be better , no doubt,

And I wouldn’t have to live with out,

Your kind ,gentle heart,

But life isn’t , so we’re apart,

Im trying to make it through the day,

Every hour , I’m stronger in some way,

I constantly wonder what your doing,

All the things you could do what your perusing,

But days seem incomplete without you,

But for you I’ll make it through. 

The wind is you

The wind is you

As the wind flows through my hair,
It’s like you whispering ,I’ll always be there,
The wind blows through the trees as it touches me,
Reminds me that you’ll always be,

Safe, happy and loved,
From down here and up above,
The whispering winds are like kisses,
something I’ll never forget but I’ll always miss,

The birds in the sky,
Remind me that you soared ever so high,
And that your soul will live on,
While your gone,

The wind will be your voice ,
And the souls of loved once will be your living choice,
Your connection to the world below,
Loving you is all I know .

The sky never seemed so blue

The sky never seemed so blue

My heart aches,
My soul breaks,
But time will heal,
And it’s good to feel,

But I can’t stop thinking,
About you , so my heart is sinking,
My eyes are swollen in tears,
My emotions brings up my fears,

The sky never looked so blue,
Probably because there’s a new angel, you,
Your soul makes the sky so blue,
Cause your a special you.

Writing a thought

Writing a thought 

I write poems to cope , why,

Just to help me get by,

I write to organize my thoughts,

So they don’t get caught,

My mind can declutter and heal,

When the bad thoughts become so real,

I write to share my thoughts,

So people can break free when their caught ,

people can feel like they can feel,

And to acknowledge it’s real.

This i promise you

This I Promise you

Your always be in my heart,
Together or apart,
When life passes me by,
I’ll look at you in the sky,

And remember how much you meant to me,
And how amazing your aura was indeed,
My life will go on and on,
Even though your gone,

I won’t stop thinking about you,
When life goes by I’ll see you soon,
My mind won’t forget ,
And I will never regret,

The time spent with you,
And I’m thankful for everything you do.

Your alive within me

Your alive with in me

In the sky your the wind the blows me a kiss,
Your tenderness brings such sweet bliss ,
My heart hurts for you but your far from the pain,
As your tears fall in relief like rain,

The sun will never shine the same again without you ,
But the sky will always  remain blue,
The trees whisper your name inside,
You no longer have to hide,

You live with in me,
Tomorrow and forever you will always be.

Too early for goodbyes

Too early for goodbyes 

I’ll never look at the blue sky the same again, 

I just will constantly wonder when ,

I get to see your face again ,

It’s too soon to say goodbye ,when ,

It seems like yesterday I met you,

And we connected together like glue,

Meeting you was the sun in the sky,

Why is it goodbye, I constantly wonder why,

I can’t go to bed,

I’ll feel unsettled rest ,

It’s too early to say goodbye,

When it was almost like yesterday we said hi. 

When will I ever

If my heart is like the titanic ship ,

Will our love go down till the last dip,

And will my love break like my heart in half,

Emotionally young like a calf,

Will time wait for you,

I have no clue,

Will I make it through ,

I’m lost in your sweet honey dew,

My mind can’t follow,

My heart is Hallow,

I can’t linger forever,

When will I ever. 

shades

I promise no more secrets ,
and Ill try to keep them less frequent,
im promise no more lies,
god knows I try,

to be honest and be true,
but I cant lie to you,
cause your all I got,
so im not gonna feel caught,

I cant be my own enemy,
but I cant set myself free,
im bound to myself like the past to the present,
and life is so effervescent

What is this thing called love

what is love,

is it internal love from above,

does it come from inside,

or something life can define,

what is the feeling,

something so surrealing,

is it something more abstract,

is a myth or a fact,

what is love, how does it feel,

how do you know if its real,

does it come within you,

or is it a warm feeling when the sky turns blue,

what is the word that seems like a riddle,

that keeps people stuck in the middle,

that feeling of something so poetic,

when life makes it hectic.

Dial Tone

I haven't heard from you in days,
it drives my mind crazy in so many ways,
my mind already goes in many places,
my emotions have different faces, 

I hear the dial tone,
almost like being friend zoned,
im lost in a world wondering if your okay,
im so lost in some way,

my faith is depleting ,
time is repeating ,
but im so lost , wondering where you are,
with many questions im left ajar.

Afraid

im scared for you,
I know there's nothing I can do,
I try so hard to be your friend,
but I cant seem to mend,

the things that upset and anxious me,
im worried but I cant let you free,
im scared for you ,
I cant see you through,

im writing just to get through,
I cant seem to understand you,
I want you to understand,
how grateful you are and how life is grand,

but I cant manage yours with mine,
the stress is above what I can define,
I worry at night,
like a nightmare im deep in fright.

Path I can’t follow

Your going down I path I can’t follow,

I don’t know how much I can swallow,

I dont wanna see you hurting inside ,

But I can’t sit and hide,

How I feel, I can’t sit and watch you suffer,

Life isn’t something you buffer ,

I’m having a hard time believing,

Life is so surrealing,

I don’t know what’s true,

But I can’t fight for you,

I’m strong but i can’t take it all,

To watch and see you fall. 

When life gets harder

When life gets hard 

When moments get hard to bare,

And you feel like you should give up and not care,

Remember the times when life was great,

and moments that excite you, till you can’t wait ,

My days have been harder to get through,

And I’ve lost many points of view,

My mind was racing ,

And my body was pacing,

And I almost forgot who I was,

So scared and lost because,

I barely knew myself,

Distorted mental health,

But I’m not off my path just on the edge,

I’m following the route not on the ledge ,

I’m finding the center , finding the way, 

With each little hour of every day. 

Remember Before

when the sky was grey,
and things weren't the right way,
my mind went crazy, 
as my emotions were wary,

I remember before,
there were a lot more,
scars and cuts on my hands,
and all the blood continue to ran,

but now I can look back,
and remember what I left out of whack,
my mind seems more clear,
cause 2 years is finally here,

I remember before,
I decided to open the door,
I remember when the sky was dark,
and I felt torn apart,

I am now free,
to live who I wanna be.

This time I don’t know if I’ll smile again.

Do you ever like you will never smile again,
And you constantly wonder why,
I never felt such ache,
Knowing my heart could break,

How many tears are enough ,
To constantly wonder why I should stay tough,
And how many lies ,
Do I tell myself to stop the tears I cry,

I feel empty and hollow,
Like there’s no sunshine tomorrow,
My heart hurts when ever I feel,
When I’m lost in a world so unreal.

I got this feeling

I got this feeling

I don’t mind a quite night,
Holding your hand in the moonlight,
And I don’t mind a sweet very minutes,
Cause I know your totally in it,

I enjoy spending time with you,
When the sky is grey you make it blue,
You brighten up my day,
In your own special way,

The sweet look in your eyes,
Makes me realize,
There’s no one that makes me feel the way you do,
When I’m lingering next to you.