Like yesterday

It was like yesterday I was in pain,
Seems like the sunshine lost to the rain ,
It seems like only last night,
I was up in some fright,

Maybe I should try to get some sleep,
But all I can do is weep,
My mind works in mysterious ways,
As it seems to give me weird plays,

Maybe it was just a dream I had,
Something about what made me glad,
It was a night that turned into pain,
In the stormy night of rain.

Reassurance

It’s cold and dark and I’m lonesome at heart,
Feel surrounded but alone and apart,
I just need someone to come to me,
Someone to set me free,

I need a hand to hold,
When it’s rainy and cold,
I want someone to hug me,
When I can’t hug myself and I can’t see ,

The best in me,
And I can my be who I wanna be,
I just need someone who can understand,
Who can be their and help me stand H

Heart beats

My heart beats to the sun and the stars,
Internally and external links is who we are,
In staccato it beats,
Like the tap ,tapping of my feet in repeat,

It flows like the river and the sea,
The cool breeze as it hits me,
My heart beats for the day,
As it does in every way,

My heart pumps blood and works all day ,
In rhythmic patterns , sun before grey .

Indecisive

I can still remember that day you asked me to be yours,
that moment opened many doors,
it made me part of who i am today,
and i think ive changed you in the same way,

i can remember all the hard times,
all the arguments and rhymes,
and all the moments i said sorry to you,
and all the times i couldnt make it through,

you made me see it another way,
and it made me stay another day,
but i cant recall the moment where i felt strange,
like our relationship as been re-arranged,

i cant live  in the past,
the more and more i want it to last,
im stronger with than without you,
i cant do what you do

What I was ....... long ago

I was there not to long ago ,

But I didn’t know a lot though,

About what I was or who I am,

And how to survive life’s traffic jam,

I was strong not to long ago,

took a while though ,

For me to develop strength,

To walk life’s long length,

I was young not to long ago,

When All I wanted was happiness though,

I was young and not ready ,

To become an adult and get unsteady,

I was clueless long ago,

When I had no worries though,

I had guidance and dreams,

But nothing is ever as it seems ,

I’m older now compared to long ago,

Even though, 

The same person didn’t change,

My life got re-arranged 

A Flash

One breathe and I’m gasping for air,
Another blink and the tears are there,
One moment and the vision was gone,
Another hour and it’s almost dawn,

A second, a minute I’m out and up now ,
 fast moving picture and I don’t know how ,
The vision got me so frozen to the core,
So confused  and wanted to know more,

A hour later it’s morning now,
And I can’t seem to allow,
My mind to go back to a few hours ago,
It’s all mushed up like dough,

It hits me and I’m on the floor,
It hits me as I’m Out the door,
I’m blocked from the night,
It hit me like a lighting strike

A dream (muse)

I drifted off into a dream,
Where life is nothing like it seemed,
The colors were vibrant and bright,
And the stars stayed the night,

The dream felt oh so real,
Nothing like reality,but I feel,
Like the sea met the sun,
And the dream was fun,

The only time I got confused,
Was when I saw my muse,
I wondered if this was reality ,
Questioning my sanity ,

The dream was something more,
Than a open door,
It brought me clarity,
In this unfamiliarity.

God’s Tears

The rain comes pouring down,
It’s like god above has a frown,
Raindrops fall like tears from my face,
Empty space,lonely need an embrace,

Trees swaying in the rain left and right,
Listening to the thunder in the night,
Pattering on the windows drops of rain,

Rain fall soothes the mind,
In the darkness we find ,
The reasons why raindrops fall,
The cry of god calls them all.

Skyscraper

im on top of the world ,
one look and my mind whirled,
i can see the whole city from here,
even the water by the pier,

i can see the cars on the road below,
and all the flashing lights glow,
the city looks so small from up high.
i can touch the sky,

the view looks so bright,
even when the light brights up the night,
the skyscraper makes the world so new,

experiencing everything i go through.

Cage

its cold and dark inside hear,

i can feel the echos coming near,

the light from the bars show a hint  of light,

even though ill never reach it  , "my kryptonite",

its small space chills me to the bone,

the small hard ground is as cold as stone,

my inner child feels all alone,

echoing those dark tones,

its shadow lingers around the cage,

im scared and full of rage,

the cage is a small dark tomb,

blinded by the fumes.

The window

Hiding behind the scenes,
Behind what I've seen,
In the past and the future of life,
Darkness and light of the knife,

The world so full of pain,
It stings and leaves a stain,
The world is also full of hope and healing,
I feel blind but it's a feeling,


the window of life can seem so sad,
Yet there's so many reasons to be glad ,
It's all how you look at the glass,
To makes those good memories last

Constellations of stars

All Through the sky  you shine,
In the Milky Way line,
Through the dark night sky,
Your shootings stars fly ,

The planets surround the dark atmosphere,
What magical things linger here,
Your constellations shine bright ,
Through the bright night ,

The moon overpowers the stars,
They Stand out from a far.

Heart

Your tenderness blinds me,

As your words kiss me and I can see,

Your gentle face among the stars,

Shines Brighter like who you are,

Your colors bring out a better soul,

That fills this empty hole,

Your kind words tell a story,

Of your inner kindnesss and glory,

haunted house

Tick ticking of the clock ,
All I hear is a painful knock,
Tap tapping of the floor ,
Banging screaming I can't no more,

Eyes eyes watching me,
Haunting scene is all i see ,
Laughs and squeals is a scary place,
Mirrors and shadows in the empty space,


No outs ,one in,
No surrenders but I can't  win,
My Nightmares becomes a reality ,
Standing right at the path of me,

Eyes glowing red,
Right there ,drop dead .

withdrawn from today

It's cold not freezing but  I get a chill,
Racing thoughts I can't sit still,
My head throbs my mind races,
My body hurts and my feet paces,

The only thing I think of  is why,
I'm not having the high,
High of happiness and peace,
When I'm sad and I want a release,

I feel alone when there's nothing to do,
I feel alone when I'm right with you,
Many people around me,
Nothing but loneliness I can see,

Agony , despair , with drawn , pain,
Lost with the sunshine and the rain .

Inner child (pain)

Your eyes are so sad when they cry,
So many questions where to start and why,
Your reflection on your face shows the pain,
When you cried alone in the darkness and rain,

Your touch is so cold you body weak,
I could barely see you or even speak ,
Your frown has never been so blue,
Even the darkness moments I've shared with you,

But I'll hold your hand,
And wait and help you stand ,
My child I'll be right there,
And I'm well aware ,

Of the pain your feeling,
It's not going away it's so unappealing,
Your eyes say the whole story of the pain,
While we stand alone in the rain,

Your fragile heart beats so fast,
as the eyes stare back at me into the past .

A page from your story

The past may never change,
No matter how much you re-arrange ,
The future isn't set in stone,
And you can't always call your own ,

Life's past may never fade,
All the bad people who've played,
With your heart and your smile,
Is all the more reason while,

You should change what you can,
And walk away when you can stand,
Rewrite when you can erase,
And take your time in the race,

People will always be there for you,
Even when you don't want them too,
Maybe the journey will be tough,
When life's plans can be rough,

Nothing will hold you back any longer,
Cause your building your life feeling stronger

what you mean to me,

you help me see,

who im meant to be,

you help me accept myself,

despite my clouded health,

you reminded me im special inside and out,

as you calm me down when i wanna shout,

you make me see the light,

and guide me when its dark at night,

you make me feel like a woman i wanna be,

when i feel like a child you help me see,

you love me for who i am  inside ,

i know its true in your eyes,

you know me like the back of your hand,

as you lift me up when i cant stand,

i know you love me for being me,

and thats all i ask baby,

il mio amore la mia vita (my love my life)

your all i need, deep down inside,

i vision of me i cant hide,

you bring out the best in me ,

you help me see what i cant see ,

my heart beats fast when i see your face,

i love your smile and warm embrace,

your always on my mind everyday,

i love you in every single way,

your like me for my good and my bad,

and you lift me up when i am sad,

you bring out the best of me in me,

your as sweet as a bumble bee,

your my beach on a rainy day,

my happiness in every single way,

your my sun when the sky is dark,

your love and will never be apart.

Summers kiss 😘

A kiss of fresh air brushes against my face,

The ride in the car breeze is as soft as a warm embrace,

Sunny skies touch my skin like a kiss,

I can't deny how much I love a summer like this ,

The trees shade my inner being,

I can't imagine a better feeling,

Your kiss brings back a moment,

So happy I can't seem to own it,

The feeling is real,

The sight is so surreal 

ANGEL

im no beauty queen , im no star,
i have pain and maybe a scar,
i cant grant wishes or make things happen,
but i cant be talked down or crapped in,

 i may not be an angel or a demon inside,
i may not be something that holds pride,
 i cant save like a hero ,
but i am no zero,

im not a Savior,
maybe its my behavior,
but i am my own,
angel or not ive flown,

Wings

There might be darkness, but i see light,

i might be scared, but there's no kryptonite,

i have wings, although they may not be strong,

im free and strong, ive survived this long,

they may not shine as bright,

their sturdy, since ive picked up a fight,

my heart might not be full ,

but i take what i can get , a push or pull,

I fly like ive never fallen before,

ive survived pain as i hit the floor,

my wings might not be as strong as ever,

but ill never give in never,

my wings are half from perfect in completion,

but im not focusing on that section,

i just want wings to soar,

through all the opens doors,

i want wings to make me free,

as free as i can be.

Trapped

Intertwining branches consume me,
I can't hide I can't be ,
Free from the truth I'm seeing
As the river flows into the darkness, my inner being,

Falling from the sky trapping me inside,
Tightening behind the scenes I can't hide,
Free as I flow like the sea,
Content with what I need to be,

Frightening yet the view is completely different from now,
Questions from The Who and the how,
Blocked by darkness consumed by lies,
Hide. Beneath those dark eyes.

White petals

We flow into sunny skies,

White petals soar and fly,

Pure like peace,

Gentle breeze of release ,

Colors fly around like a confetti,

Their not always blooming ready,

Nothing but happy feelings ,

So magically surrealing,

I need this real feeling,

So pretty so freewheeling,

White bright petals emerge 

from the earth,

Bringing back my worth 

Open doors

Visions from a far,
Shine bright as the brightest star,
Wishing more than ever just to feel free,
Everyday I'm just trying to be me ,

I love feeling happiness amongst others,
I love feeling accepted towards  one another ,
I'm a piece of a bigger picture than myself,
I'm always here for me and my health,

Your worth everything when you smile,
Even when I'm trying and while,
I feel lost and sad,
I know I can always feel glad,

I'm a bigger person than I was before,
Opening many roads and striving for open doors

Grey Skies

darkness comes from pain,
tears fall like rain.
ashes fall like leaves,
spinning hits darkness weaves,

visions of hatred block the mind .
circle around till you find,
the point of view
of what you thought you knew

the light shines through the sky,
shinning over the world so high,
shades of light turn to color,
as we love one another,

we all have our frets,
and our regrets,
we can have our greys,
even on sunny days

im in the grey sky
darkness behind light through these eyes.

Soul Seach

who are you at the end of the day,
inside and out and every which way,
identify yourself within your heart,
soul searching by taring thing apart,

the words in your head tell a story,
the trials the pain and the glory,
find yourself among the others,
find who you are among the lovers,

agony blurs who you are,
fighting to find that shining star,
souls detach you from who you are,
even the deepest scar,

sometimes you just have to dig deep,
to find something worth the keep.

Bridge

the roads may turn different ways,
your destination might take days,
it might be bumpy and rough,
and you may think you had enough,

the journey may have trials and dead ends,
and moments that make you bend,
bridges may be incomplete,
but you dont give up defeat,

it may take long,
as your path is drawn,
but it was there for you,
so you can make it through,

ou may find its not what you want in the end,
as you change things and mend
but it will never end the journey ahead,
cause you will make it in the end

 

Struggle

cold chills shiver up my spine,
so frozen i cant feel fine,
pain agony in their eyes,
their pain and hunger consumes the tears i cry,

although their are many reasons why,
people all cant be fortunate "sigh:"
it hits me deep down inside,
i cant just turn and hide,

their eyes tell their story when our gaze meet,
with pain and sorrow our eyes greet,
their weakness hits me hard inside,
when i see their pain in their eyes,

its a struggle to see them in pain,
but they never refrain ,
to smile and hae hope in their heart,
even when their life is torn apart.

Set in Stone

a memory so clear,
it hits me so dear,
yet it scares me
come and see

a moment so lost,,
but its as cold as frost,
it makes me feel so great,
yet i don't  even hesitate,

its bad and goof a moment and memory
something written from a century,
the words are set in stone,
DNA from the bone,

we depict change ,
as we rearrange,
the story behind the scenes,
and the truth behind the dreams


the backbone is set in stone,
as we change and become our own

Racing Thoughts

visions in my head collide,

as the wild thoughts subside,

my mind wanders like a moving picture,

as it changes fast and flickers,

my wires are working over time

it cant seem to rewind,

my emotions are inflating ,

its so exhasturbating,

darkness fades, 

sunny days,

darkness falls, 

autumn calls.

my mind resets

as it forgets,

the only throbbing pain,

that drives me insane,

Rain Call

like tiny thoughts activating in your head,
and dreams flowing around you in bed,
like soothing sound of a small drum beat,
and the tapping sound of your feet,,

relaxing and soothing that sound makes ,
the remedy of all aches,
as rain drops topple down,
like hits your ear like a soothing sound,

 it calms my aches,
beautiful like small snow flakes,
gentle like a warm sunny day ,
soothing like leaves flying away,

raindrops patter all around,
echoing that soothing sound.

The Stall

some quiet sanctuary of peace,
a gentle breath of release,
thoughts spiral and spin,
non stop arguing will i win,

its in my head they go wild,
as it holds me back like a child,
my inner self is afraid,
of what was made

 of the past and the future self,
inner and external health,
time heals all,
a sense of relief in the stall.

Storm Shutters (she likes dark)

its dark and she seems fine,
content in darkness she calls mine,
my peace and serenity feels whole,
nothing like a dark hole,

that symbolizes darkness and pain,
like cleansing in the rain,
agony is gone from my bones,
cold no longer like a stone,

shes likes the dark,
calm like a stroll in the park,
dark like peace and tranquility,
strong and one visibly,,

Lost in a Storm

consumed by agony,
lost in a tragedy,
family torn,
lost and worn,

painful memories stain or mind,
in bad times we find,
pain as we loss the ones we love,
to the sky and the sun above,

rough winds tough rains,
leave emotional tough stains,
as the after effects take its toll on your heart,
family loss and torn apart,

The Clock is Ticking

time seems to go so slow,
nothing to do no where to go,
the clock seems to drag the day on,
with everyday , night and dawn,

time got me stuck in a spiral again and again,
as it circles around me i dont know when,
time will find a meaning,
when ill find this feeling,

time circles its way,
through each and everyday,
night seems so far,
like every bright star,

Painting on a Image

Con-caving, relaying , displaying of life,
as a journey happiness of strife,
locked up or as free as a bird,
words of speech or loss for words,

internal controls , external imagery,
dark pain or strong synergy,
paintings through your life,
using the palette knife,

we create a image in our head,
of our feelings ass we are torn apart,
the images in our head,
and the dreams and nightmares in our bed,
'
we are both going to soar,
paddling with the life's oar.