Swans

Swans 

At first I thought I would never love again,

I know I’m young to say this but I felt that then,

I’m like a swan , you have one partner for life,

Through happiness and strife,

If one died the other was in deep sorrow,

But I’m going strong each and every tomorrow ,

You were my soul mate for life ,

Through happy days and strife ,

And when you left me on earth,

I had to find my worth,

Love myself and love again,

Wait for it or when ,

I love like that again,

Being a good friend . 

Nothing but a good cry

After a good cry,

Questions the reason why,

You let him in,

And in and in , 

It hurt like a truck hitting my heart ,

All my thoughts scattered apart ,

But I’m not sorry for giving him a chance,

But that’s my last glance ,

Nothing but pain I don’t need any more ,

I’m closing that door,

Just need to cry it out,

Maybe even shout,

Just a little crying,

Then I’m gonna get back to flying . 

Drug of choice

Drug of choice ,

But you had a voice,

A powerful tool,

But I know you think it’s cool,

I know it helped you sleep,

And kept those tears from making you weep,

But it’s a temporary feeling,

Life’s so much more surrealing,

It felt good he said,

Not the way it should , 

what sacrifices did you have to make,

To temporarily cure your heart ache,

And when you get it,

There’s always a time to quit,

Drug of choice ,

Use your voice . 

From your head to your toes

from your head to your toes 

Your gaze never fails to amaze,

Your eyes are like the stars, I haven’t seen them in days,

Your lips so tender and so sweet,

As beautiful as your summers swim in the heat,

Your arms as strong as a soldier,

Warms me up when days get colder ,

Your feet carry me when i am weak,

Fighting through with me to the peak. 

Intense

Intense 

When someone says something that hurts it’s like thunder,

All my emotions plunder ,

And when I feel pain,

It’s like a big storm of snow or rain,

And when I get angry and loud,

It’s like lightning in a crowd,

The  intense feeling,

Described as everyday weather , it’s surrealing ,

And I often wonder why I feel so intensely and deeply,

And when I can’t bare it I hibernate into some sleepy,

State, I sometimes spiral ,

Like a cyclone gone viral . 

Text again

Text again 

Sometimes I wish I could text you ,

Just To hear your point of view,

You always knew what to say,

On a sunny or rainy day,

You knew how to make me smile, 

Laugh and smile again while,

I’m in pain you made me feel,

The real feeling I didn’t conceal ,

Your my rock when I’m unstable ,

My crutch the made me able,

My healthy friend in the end,

When life caved in you made it mend,

I wish I could text you my sorrows,

As you hold me into tomorrow,

I wish I could text you my smiles , 

As your reply in the text lingers awhile,

I wish I could text you again,

But I guess I’ll wait until the moment when .

Love the way you did

Love the way you did 

People don’t love the way you did,

Or maybe I just picked the wrong bid,

I constantly think of you watching me up there,

And I feel like you really care ,

I know you see me when I cry,

You try to whisper the answers but I don’t know why,

The heavens don’t travel to earth,

But I know I’m strong and what I’m worth ,

You send me messages through the day, 

It’s like your reaching out Anyway,

But I know the world could of gave you so much more,

What we could do, If you didn’t open that door,

But people don’t understand me the same,

They didn’t play the same game,

They don’t know the notes to the melody,

And the cure remedy . 

Barrier

in the darkest times theres always a dim light,
a inner fire, a willingness to fight,
in times where life seems dull and low,
remember how far you've come and grow,

night will shine through into day,
remember the sky will shine after anyway,
when the rain falls,
remember your stronger than it all,

so no matter what barriers you may face,
things may flow out of place,
but your stronger than the dark vibe,
your the leader of your tribe,

Windows

its nice to be in a place with a view of the city,
its also refreshing to know that theres pain in the pretty,
the four white walls of the hospital kept my mind spiraling,
its nice to know the demons are inviting,

but nothing was on my mind but the beauty in the sky,
in the window the planes flying high,
I wrote a poem before this,
one with less happiness and bliss,

it was about a window and the view of the city,
and The beauty in contrast of the sadness and pity,
the lights in the  sky continued to shine,
in the moments of the dark dark times.

Nothing yet

Nothing yet

Time fades,
But the memories remain ,
Dark days come,
But the light wont succumb ,

To the pain of the past,
The heart heals and you will last,
Hide nothing feel everything,
Emotions flow like the choir sings ,

Fly till you soar,
Live and learn , you’ll want more,
Dance till the sun sets,
Live cause you haven’t seen it yet.

Everyday

Everyday 

When someone passes your whole life changes,

Part of you and your soul rearranges,

Your whole being and the way you think differs ,

And your light seems to fade as it flows dimmer,

You walk a little different and feel a little new,

Look at life from a new view,

When someone’s gone it’s a new story,

A new chapter that begins , a new glory ,

And when they leave you on earth ,

You realize how much they’re really worth ,

When they have gone away,

You realize life was precious with them in it everyday. 

High hopes

High hopes

I feel deeply and it’s real,
I don’t just feel just to feel,
When I ache I break,
And sometimes it’s more than I can take,

I laugh and smile,
And all the more while,
I feel the feeling that’s real,
True feeling that appeals ,

To my emotions,
Love of devotion,
And maybe my hopes are to high,
But a bird sometimes doubts its ability to fly,

I maybe living in a fantasy or a dream,
Cause I have hopes sometimes their foggy as they seem.

More

I was hoping to create more, 

And find out what’s left in store ,

For us, I was yours,

I just wanted more time, more memories and to open more doors,

But life never gives us a time frame,

You play life and play it’s game,

I wanted more than what was given,

I was hoping I could have it all , I was driven ,

I wanted dreams with you ,

Goals achieved for both of us too,

I wanted tomorrow and the morrows after,

All the smiles and the laughter 

My hand

My hand 

Hold my hand we will walk together,

Even if we get lost we will be there forever,

And when the night seems lost,

You’ll be my warmth in the frost,

So hold me tight,

All through the night,

And when time looses its way,

We will make it day by day ,

I’ll be your strength,

Through miles and lengths ,

I’ll be your shoulders,

Through life’s rough boulders ,

So I’ll be your hand and you’ll be mine,

Together forever, as we find,

Life isn’t perfect but we are,

Brighter than the brightest star . 

Nothing but a memory

Nothing but a memory 

Your in my dreams and in my thoughts,

Like a fish you always get caught ,

Your on my mind and in my heart,

In heaven and on earth we won’t be apart,

Your a memory I always replay ,

A moment that lives on with me day by day,

Your a spirit among the living,

When there’s pain your forgiving ,

My mind and yours are in sync ,

As we are on the brink ,

Of a memory we can’t forget,

Your soul Is stuck on and it’s set . 

Black History month

there is little we know about black history,

so little, most of it is a mystery,

but there are many people who've made a difference,

despite people's judgement and bitterness,

they empower each other to grow,

educating people so that they know,

blacks are equally to whites,

and when that happens the world will be bright,

they are fighting for there rights,

everyday and night,

when people are against them,

they wont be condemn.

full moon

Full Moon

Even though the full moon represents the final stage of change,

life isn't complete until you rearrange,

your priorities and your choices,

being your strength and Stand up for your own voices,

even the wolf feels alone,

howling at the moon feeling cold stone,

cold breeze and the dark night,

the wolf is howling till the light,

and when the sky seems full,

as the earth pulls

some parts can seem empty as the moon stood,

wishing that it could.

Dominoes

Dominoes 

When your life seems to flow together,

Each piece falls down in unison forever,

Each small moment feels right,

The sun is in touch with the night ,

The pieces link without an image,

The old and new mixed with the vintage ,

All the things flow together in time ,

In sync and in rhyme. 

Fall into your arms

Fall into your arms 

When the sky cries it’s tears ,

And the thunder projects it’s fears,

I fall like a dove right into your arms,

Sweet like candy, your sweet charm ,

In the misty sky, 

As the birds fly,

I fall right into you like a leaf to the ground,

Quite like a ripple without a sound,

And I fall into a slumber a dream,

a dream cycle , a dream weave,

A fall into your spirit among space,

The reflection of your face 

Dreams

Dreams 

In my dreams I speak to you,

You give me guidance like you used too ,

You encourage me to never give up,

And remind me to breathe when I feel like I had enough,

In my dreams you comfort me. Dry my tears and make me see, the light in the dark sky,

And lift me up so I can fly,

You send me signs when I’m lost,

Be my warmth in the cold frost ,

You give me hope when all seems gone,

your my light in the dawn 

Way back when

Way back when 

Way back when we were just going,

You and me starting flowing,

We got to know each other as friends ,

Who knew it was till the end,

Way back when we were in pain,

We dried each other’s tears in the rain,

We were our blanket in the cold,

There for each other Until we grow old,

And when life seems complex,

You and I followed the text ,

That got us out of the dark and into the light,

Like fireflies in the night . 

Tonight

Tonight

tonight I lay in bed,
With thoughts of you flowing through my head,
Of what life might be,
If you set the drugs free,

And be clean and sober,
And all the pain would be over,
It would just be you and me,
How happy this valentines would be,

But tonight I lay in bed,
And I remember the things I’ve said,
And how I can’t dream it didn’t happen,
Cause I’m not the captain ,

Of your boat ,
You had to keep yourself a float,
But tonight I lay down thinking,
Of you that’s who I’m missing.

Here’s to you

Here’s to you

Today’s the day,
And I know your away ,
But I wanted to wish you happy Valentine’s Day,
Cause I miss you more than ever today ,

I wish you were here,
But I know your always near,
Everyday you on my mind,
And I find it hard to find,

A reason why this day is so special,
Cause I can name several ,
Days I think and love you ,
In fact it’s all I do ,

So happy Valentine’s Day,
From earth to heaven and away ,
May your day be happy and you be loved,
Here and above .

Pray

when times are dark and grey,
I pray and hope there's a way,
to have light brighten my day,
when the skies are grey,

and when the days seem long,
I pray that I remain strong,
and that the sun will shine again,
and then I hope when,

I feel lost and alone,
I remember where I roam,
I pray for the night,
and I will come through to the light

Valentines day

the day of roses,
cute pictures and poses,
Meals with candle light,
kisses at night,

chocolates galore,
maybe some more,
treats and hugs,
feeling warm and snug,

maybe walks on the beach,
kisses back and forth each,
maybe sunset romance,
a light slow dance,

special day,
treat them well in your own special way,
valentines day

Invisible force

Invisible force

My heart is connected to you,
In another space or time ,I’ll come through ,
In a snow or rain,
I’ll comfort you in pain,

As you Will  do the same,
The same game,
In time or space,
We will meet face to face ,

In another dimension,
Life will have no tension,
An invisible force keeping us close together,
A bond that will never sever

Embrace

Embrace

When I’m scared I look over my shoulder and your there,
Your spirit is with me and I know you care ,
When I’m cold at night ,
Your embrace makes me feel alright,

And when the sun comes up each day,
I remember your watching me in every way,
And I don’t need to hide,
The feelings all inside,

And in the sad times,
Your my words like in my rhymes,
I’m not afraid to fly,
Cause your arms are there to catch me in the sky.

crave

Crave 

Its like a drug, sometimes I miss it,

But once I quit, I knew I had to quit,

I can’t go back on what ifs,

Make up stories of myths,

But the cravings whisper to me,

Make every hair stand and I see,

Its a feeling I miss,

But I gave it up for happiness and bliss,

Its a craving ,

Ive been slaving,

Instead of controlling,

It was tolling,

in my head,

In bed,

In life,

The sharp blade of knife.

Terror in my eyes

Terror in my eyes

people say they can see the terror in my eyes,

maybe its the fears of the future, you know how time flies,

it might be the inner child trying to speak out,

afraid of being silent , it wants to shout,

maybe its the million unanswered question in my head,

the paranoia ranting instead,

maybe its the demons of past calling,

or the fear of falling,

or maybe its what I've been through,

the old and the new,

maybe its the fear of tomorrow,

or the internal sorrow.

Addressing the man in the mirror

Addressing the man in the mirror

im sorry for the pain I put you through,
I didn't want to hurt anyone but I hurt you,
I hurt the only one who was there for me in dark times,
it was myself but I couldn't fight through the pain with the rhymes,

im stronger than I was before,
I shouldn't of gotten so deep I wanted more,
happiness instead of pain,
but all I got was tears and rain,

so now im apologizing for my actions,
the crazy emotions and my reactions,
im addressing the pain I endured ,
clearing my head to become pure.

its not impossible

its not impossible

its hard to forget the pain of the past,

but holding on makes the pain last,

its hard to find courage and strength on your own,

but the more you learn the more you know,

and when life seems hard to bare,

and people you feel don't care,

remember the scars of the past,

and fight cause its not impossible, the pain wont last,

remember the person you were before,

open that new door,

remember its not impossible,

to create the possible.

Burns with the fire

Burns with the fire

I fought through the pain,

endured thunder and rain,

but the fight Is till in me,

cause the war isn't over, I can see,

the horizon beyond the dark skies,

the hope in the terror behind those eyes,

I stand behind the inner strength I have

cause its the only thing that gets me down, that ave,

avenue of pain, and heart ache,

internal and external break,

but no pathway will diminish my fire,

burning with strength and desire.