A little different

A little different 

Maybe I walk a little slower,

Talk octaves lower,

Or maybe I smile a little less,

Darker clothes when I dress,

Or maybe I laugh a little less,

And i feel less  happy, I confess,

It’s different since you’ve been gone,

Like there’s no more dawn,

Maybe it’s different just to me,

Or maybe others can see,

But I smile a little less now,

Since you’ve been gone I don’t know how,

A person can make life change ,

Or maybe a person can make you rearrange,

Your outlook,

And Change the story in the book 

It’s hard to let go

I don’t know what to think,

When I know your not here, my heart sinks,

My heart knows you’ve gone away,

But my head says no way,

I love you and it’s hard to admit your gone,

It’s almost like a nightmare and after dawn,

Your right by my side,

But your not and I hide ,

The pain, some anger inside ,

I don’t wanna admit it true ,part of me Denies,

That your really gone and I’m alone,

And I’m stuck from the thought , cold as stone.

Trying to piece together their puzzle

When I see people struggle inside ,

It reminded me of when I struggled and tried to hide,

My struggle and pain from the gazing eyes,

Saying ok but that was all lies,

And when I see my friend ache,

My heart breaks,

Cause it reminds me of my pain,

When I hurt, internal tears fall like rain ,

And when people tell me they hurt inside,

I remember the moments I cried,

And I remind myself everyone struggles ,

Trying to piece there puzzle. 

You can turn it around

You can turn it around 

When your down,

Remember you can turn it around,

Count your blessings everyday,

And remember everyday is a new day ,

You have your friends  when life is to much,

A hand to hold a voice to clutch,

When your down and life’s to hard to bare,

Remember your friends care,

Don’t forget how far you’ve come,

Don’t every succumb ,

To the pain that drags you down,

Remember you can turn it around. 

Blank space

The sky is so white ,

No clouds , almost paralyzed with fright,

Like a blank canvas , no color,

Emptiness like no other,

White mixed with grey,

The sun on this day,

Blank like a empty space,

Lost in space ,

Sun shining through some cracks ,

Like flower peaking from the paths ,

Mostly grayish white skies ,

Where no birds fly. 

Best wishes

Don’t what you love today,

And remember your unique in your own way,

Shine today cause it’s your special day,

Remember nothing can get in your way,

happy birthday to you,

Always remember be true to,

Who you are,

Cause your you’re own shining star,

Make the day great and fun,

Cause a new you and age has begun,

Remember to celebrate you,

And enjoy everything you do. 

Take another chance

when I saw you it felt right,
like no more teary nights,
maybe im ready for something new,
something I never ever knew,

maybe im ready,
pacing it steady,
but im willing to take a chance,
your first glance,

I no longer feel scared,
im ready to go there,
take the chance,
dance that first dance.

New eyes

my heart fluttered like a new butterfly,
as my mood lights up and soars high,
I felt like a toy being turn on ,
felt so lonely but the feeling is slowly gone,

part of has been warn out from pain,
you were the sunshine in my rain,
you lightened the world as you passed by,
as my heart jumped when you said hi,

Will this last forever

Will I ever heal from the pain,

Or will it drive me insane,

Will I ever move on,

Now that your gone,

I woke up feeling so much uncertainty inside,

Or will my stuck self last forever or will I have to hide ,

Myself full of unanswered emotions,

Long lost devotion,

Wondering how I will overcome,

Or will my strength succumb. 

Stuck

Sometimes I feel lost inside,

Constantly walking, wanting to hide ,

I feel stuck in what seems like a endless circle,

I don’t know what to do it’s like a hurdle,

I’m constantly searching for closure,

As I keep my composure,

I never got an explanation,

Unsettled in a uneasy situation,

after it happened I never felt so stuck,

And you can’t explain it to me , so I’m out of luck,

I’m some what stuck in a situation,

Can’t overcome it’s implications. 

Missing piece

Missing piece

my heart is very strong,

it has the durability to last long,

but part of my heart is missing,

now that your gone, ive been wishing,

my heart could heal,

but i still cant overcome its real,

i wish you weren't gone,

but like the dark, theres dawn,

my heart is strong and it will last,

but its as fragile as glass,

i wish my piece wasn't gone,

but you have my piece and my mind will catch on.

my small steps

i have a lot going for me,

a lot of uncertainties,

many changes are coming my way,

who knew my life could change any day,

a lot of hopes , dreams and goals,

making steps and mile stones.

ive overcome so many obstacles in my life,

im now balancing my happiness and strife,

im unsure of what life will bring,

i just want life to be successful and all those things,

ive tried so hard and made many mistakes,

but now im strong and i will overcome the ache.

lovesick

lovesick

i miss you,

based on my poems its true,

i miss you and the connection,

my heart and my mind has tension,

i somehow seem stuck without closure,

as i manage my composure,

i miss you everyday.

every single way,

i miss your hugs,

i dont feel so snug,

i miss your heart,

as im torn apart.

my love still burns bright

my love still burns bright

even though your gone, my love still burns as bright,
shines through the darkest of nights,
my spirit connects strong and im always with you,
my life on earth is your connection too,

the wind is your voice whispering to me,
the bright sun is you smiling contently,
the rain is the tears when your missing me,
and the rainbow is the love you given me, i can see,

our love grow stronger,
like the roots growing our love lasts longer,
we connect through two worlds two dimension,
our love has extensions.

Your voice in my head

Your voice In my head 

Close your eyes don’t be afraid,

I’m only away, until you prayed,

dry your tears don’t you fear,

Remember I’ll always be near ,

I’m to answer your fears,

Soothe and help conquer your tears,

I’m far but always near,

Remember there’s nothing to fear,

I’m a prayer away,

Don’t be afraid to say,

My name and call out to me,

I’ll set your fears and set you free. 

Your near

Your near

It’s hard managing life without you ,but I’m doing it ,

Sometimes my emotions take control but I don’t quit,

I remember all the good times with you,

And it helps me get through,

Those days come and go,

When I wish you were here and I know,

Your gone and I’m stuck here,

But I manage knowing your near.

Your spirit is close by,

I try to soar and fly ,

remembering all the good times with you,

Knowing you would want me to ,

Be strong through the pain,

Fight through the rain,

Manage life without you,

And Remain happy too. 

Hugs from my pillow

Hugs from my pillow 

I stare at our picture on the wall,

And my emotions start to fall,

The memories flood out through my head,

As I lie down in my bed,

I miss us being together,

And now I know we will never ,

Have memories the same again,

Until we meet again,

Part of me feels like crying,

Cause your in heaven flying,

So I grab my pillow and hug it in my arms,

Remembering your loving charm . 

Picture of you

Picture of you 

I have a picture of us on my wall,

It’s a part of our story but not all,

It’s a snapshot of all that we’ve been through, 

Just us together , just us too ,

The picture tells a story,

Our pain, struggles and glory,

It’s a memory frozen in time,

A memory captured in rhymes ,

I miss the smile on your face,

Your warm embrace,

And the photo shows it all, 

The memories the highs and the downfalls 

Remedy

Remedy

There’s no cure for the pain I endured,
Time is the key but not the cure,
The pain slowly aches but comes
And goes ,
But I know how to manage ,it’s what I know,

But I miss you more than ever,
My love for you is forever,
And there’s no remedy for the internal pain,
Just the tears that fall like rain ,

I miss the time we’ve spend together,
Time heals everything but our love is forever

Little things

Poem - little things

Little things that remind me of you ,

Make me smile and blush, like it  used too,

Little memories that made me laugh and smile,

Lingers In my head for a while. 

I love reliving the good times ,

Capturing them in my rhymes,

Every moment with you,

Is time well spent  and I hope you agree too, 

Cause time isn’t enough,

To capture and relive all the stuff ,

But little things I remember of you,

Reminds me that I value our time together too.

A visit from you

A visit from you

It’s a breezy day,
I was thinking of you the usual way,
And a butterfly appeared before me,
It’s nice to know your still here in spirit , I can see,

It’s been awhile since I’ve saw you,
Who knew the sky would be so blue,
It’s a beautiful sight to see, knowing your visiting me ,

It’s wasn’t along at all then you were gone,
To the heavens and beyond,
You were here enough to take a photo ,
Until next time though.

The only way to feel close

I slept with a picture of your head stone next to me,

I can’t help but feel closer to you , can’t you see,

That now that your gone  I miss your touch,

Who knew it would hurt so much,

It’s hard that your away,

I miss you more and more everyday,

And every moment I wish it was a different way,

That you  could still be here another day,

I still go on day by day,

Knowing you would want it that way,

But every moment spent with you,

Is stuck to me like glue,

I slept with your headstone  next to me,

Cause that’s the closest we are gonna be. 

living through the Tide

as im surfing life through the tide,

i carry your heart along for the ride,

i use my strength to lead my way,

remembering all lessons people say,

the tides are sometimes rough,

but im riding life just enough,

to feel the waves,

making some good saves,

and sometimes the waves are smooth,

living life through the tempo and the groove,

life is the tide,

riding the ride

a spark of hope

 when im down,

and i have trouble turning things around,

i think of you and all your strength,

and how you moved mountains and walked lengths,

your determination was incredible,

as your courage and hope was flexible,

your strength made people soar,

kept them wanting more,

and when im down,

and full of frowns,

i imagine what you would say,

at the end of the day,

your strength was a inspiration,

that fills me with determination,

wilt

Wilt

sometimes life gets hard to bare,
and i cant stand the glare,
of the negative, hardships of life,
the happiness and strife,

my life's like a flower,
full of beauty and inner power,
but when times get rough,
and you feel like you've had enough,

your flower is wilted,
the stems are tilted,
but the time wont keep it down.
a smile will over power the frown.

When it pours

They say it gets easier as time goes on,

And pain heals even though your gone,

I miss you more,

Especially when it pours ,

It’s almost like your crying,

And all I wanna do is hug you , I’m not lying,

And time goes by,

As the moments fade but the memories fly,

I miss the tender moments,

And when it rains I miss those times, I own it,

As it rains and pours,

It’s reminds me our time that faded and I miss you more.

As I drew

I remember when my hand grab the pencil again,

A ton of memories piled in my head ,

I haven’t drawn a picture in a while,

So all my art was filed ,

I took out a page,

I’m at a new stage,

And a started to draw, 

And without a flaw,

My heart filled with emotions 

My mind stimulating devotion,

All the memories I’ve been holding in ,

I let it go like as I win ,

And the feeling is new,

A feeling I never knew ,

I could feel without you,

A sense of comfort, as I drew . 

treasure

treasure what you've got in life,
the happiness and the strife,
be grateful for the people that come in and out,
the uncertainties and doubts,

be grateful for family and friends,
the one who stays with you through to the end,
the people who are willing to bend,
the shoulder to cry on from a friend,

treasure your phone calls,
the moments you have it all,
be grateful for the chances,
the first and last glances,

be willing to give a chance,
be out of the box and dance,
be strong and be open to change,
live life and rearrange.

discovering who I am

everyday we are discovering who we are,

we are unique like each individual star,

we have our own map draw just for us,

content with  the minuses and pluses,

no path is created the same,

life is a game,

patterns connect our lives together,

discovering who we are forever,

we continue to grow,

learn. adapt and know,

we continue to discover who we are,

we are unique like a constellation star,