Follow the beat of your own drum

The world is full of colors,

In the blackness I stand among all others,

The one in light behind the dark shadows,

I stand as the wind blows,

From my soul my heart excesses, 

And my mind progresses,

Into a journey full of light,

Far away from the pain of the night,

I’m beyond the nightmares of my youth,

and soon I will know the truth ,

Behind what I’m running from,

And start to follow the beat of my own drum. 

2 Souls in one

Your eyes are a river to the soul,
Covers up the pain and the hole,
In my heart , your love shows me the way,
Beyond the darkness and the day,

Your heart beats to the rhythm of my favorite song,
I know you like me despite how long ,
We’ve been dating, I know it’s real,
The feeling for you is the kiss Is the real deal,

Your mind and mine connect, in units of song,
As our love is traveling as it prolongs ,
The stars together at night,
Without you there’s no kryptonite.

A poet in the veins

A blue night sky, 

Represents a warm eclipse up high,

A fragment of my poetry in a page,

As everything changes with age,

My prayers are clouds in the sunshine ,

I’m words all complete and fine,

The stars are the reasons behind the scenes,

Darkness won’t hide the seems,

The trees at night are my shade,

Behind the dark age,

As the rain drops like tears,

As the imagery appears.

(Backup) Stage lights

My heart beating in a constant beat,

I’m anxious, I’m pacing from my

Feet,

My voice is frozen no words will appear ,

Will I ever overcome this fear,

Their all wanted for me to show,

But I’m lost in myself, little did they know,

I’ve been nervous for days,

Planning it so many ways,

Their calling my name , cheering me on,

But I’m still anxious been that way since dawn,

Imagining myself out there scares me,

I’m just trying to be free,

So I step out into the light,

Blinded and frozen in the sight,

Of all those eyes staring at me,

Trying to judge me, I can foresee,

Only the worst from those eyes,

I hold back the tears I cry,

But I hold my head held high,

As I sore and fly . 

I look up above

Embrace the pain and the darkness within you,

Comfort the scared child hidden as scared as you,

Enlighten the happiness and meaning in the world today,

Question the uncertainty in every way,

I look above for an answer  a reply,

I look up and ask for a reason why,

I wonder every night and day,

Will the pain in the world ever go away,

I watch and hear the pain on the news,

It’s winning a want but I loose,

Faith in world above,

So I look up for serenity and love,

Tell me why there’s so much hate,

Some much injustice and all of the above ,

Tell me why the people look to you,

Someone above they thought they knew,

Could change the world and answer or prayers at night,

But all I see is a unanswered prayer lost in sight.

(Photo of me is the photo cover of poem)

The eyes represent innocence and the black and white represent pain and sorrow) 

A hand of a poet

When my hand touches the pen, it’s a rush of relaxation,

Words flow out of my mind like no temptation,

Rhymes come together like a perfect tone,

It flows through me right to the bone,

Sometimes there’s a message and sometimes there’s not,

I can’t keep up from all I’ve written, I’m

Caught,

In a poetic state of mind,

And all it does is replay and rewind,

My writting speaks from heart ,

Poetry and voice can’t keep it apart,

Sound like a rhymthic pattern ,

 verses strong and  out of this world like Saturn 

The shadow I see

I’m a whisper in the dark night,

I feel but my emotions aren’t light,

Their heavy , strong and cold,

My emotions drove me as I grow old,

I travel ,yet I haven’t found home,

Nothing made me find my own,

I was weak but I can be strong,

But it took me ages to last long,

It will always linger around,

The intense dark sound,

It’s almost like a shadow beside me,

As I grow old it will always be the shadow I see. 

Stars ⭐️

A shimmer in the sky,

Brightly shining, up there so high,

A reflection of  all hopes dreams,

Shining past all the darkness it seems,

They are all their own light,

Keeping the happiness at night,

It keeps dreams alive,

Beyond the stars is where I strive,

The stars are like ripples in the sea,

Reflection of glass staring right at me ,

It’s a mark of internal and external being,

Calming , surreal feeling ,

It’s a feeling of what’s real,

A hope that new things are near,

The calming light of night,

As they shine so bright.

Night

as I walk through the empty room,

All this empty space and doom,

Is far away from me now,

It was dark before and I don’t know how,

I’ve come through the pain,

No more tears, no more rain,

I’ve seen the light at the end of pain,

And the sadness has almost gone down the drain,

My prayers have been answered   By the light,

Every blessing answered from night. 

A poets journey

My writing ,It flows out like a stream ,
And the words are nothing like the events it seems,
But it’s a snapshot of my feelings ,
So intense , so real , it’s a part of healing ,

It’s dark and painful words flow like tears,
But it’s like the words I say and your the ears,
I write to feel a rush of escape,
When everything is so out of shape ,

Your a page of my heart and my mind,
The answers I can’t seem to find
The empty pieces of my journey over time,
Written in all rhymes

Taken -

They took another person today,

Voiceless they didn’t even have a say,

There was tears in their eyes,

Emptiness to the core as her soul dies,

The light left her eyes, 

As they cuffed her like knots and ties,

They took her away without a word,

No goodbyes , don’t know if we ever heard,

A goodbye from her,

Emptiness surrounds us and stirs,

She was taken from  the light,

From a room nothing but darkness and night and

All The things I didn’t do

Your mind is a battlefield full of dark,
It’s not a smooth ride or a walk in the park,
It’s a painful ride and a emotion run,
Despite the beauty and the shining sun,

It’s full of baggage I can’t let go,
Its all the yes’s when I wanted to say no,
All the agony I tried to hide away,
and all the people I let go when I wanted them
To stay,

A journey of miles and miles from home ,
Freedom , yet your stuck in a dome,
Weak yet you keep walking fast,
Future yet your still in the past,

Tears yet it looks like rain,
Sanity behind the pain.

Flash back - forward

Today it hit me like a truck into my head,
I thought I moved on but instead,
It drove into my mind like a clip,
Scared me inside, I’m a missing chip,

The memories were as vivid and real as before,
Trying to remove them from my mind ,but I wanted more ,
I thought I changed but I’m just the same as before ,
The thoughts only made me sore,

It was like as powerful as a alcoholic that craved alcohol,
So intense as if I was in an internal brawl,
I wanted it as bad as before,
Knowing how far I’ve come I still wanted to re-open that door,

tears hit my eyes but I refused to let them see me cry ,
The others and my inner Demons , (sigh) ,
I spent those few minutes which felt like years in the dark,
Internally broken and torn apart,

It was like a was living a horror story,
Based on life’s true events no glory,
But this time there was a happy ending,
My thoughts decreased and my pain was mending ,

I didn’t give in to the inner demons of the past,
even though it killed me , during and while it lasts.

With in

Ashes of the damned consumed into a dark abyss ,
Lingering around the cloudy steamy mist,
They represent evil and the unjust ,
As their souls rot like rust,

We all have or sanity ,
Some people cursed in vanity ,
Cursed by the dark with in,
Marked by the devils sin,

Burned by their mistakes ,
Tortured by their pain and ashes ,
As they burn into ashes ,
Within as the night clashes .

Fall

I hide the intense feeling,
Mute the darkness , as I stare at the ceiling,
Eyes blink as tears fall,
Empty and hollow stall,

My heart is a unbroken puzzle,
So lost, I can’t juggle,
The eternal fantasy from the truth ,
Frozen in my youth,

My innocence blended with fear,
Like a giant sharp spear,
My pulse pounding like a drum beat,
As I fall to my feet

haunt me

Dark clouds may part my ways,
Cloudy skies ,hazy days ,
Pain fills my eyes like a glass of water,
Gathered like a tank of hot water, only (getting hotter),

My emotions numb me like ice,
Hidden beneath me, it’s a sacrifice,
To feel happy beyond the pain,
As it lingers like rain,

I can’t allow myself to go back to the past,
When it lingers like a monster under the bed,( it always lasts)
I’m scared Of what I used to be,
And I don’t want it to haunt me. Haunt me