Flash back - forward

Today it hit me like a truck into my head,
I thought I moved on but instead,
It drove into my mind like a clip,
Scared me inside, I’m a missing chip,

The memories were as vivid and real as before,
Trying to remove them from my mind ,but I wanted more ,
I thought I changed but I’m just the same as before ,
The thoughts only made me sore,

It was like as powerful as a alcoholic that craved alcohol,
So intense as if I was in an internal brawl,
I wanted it as bad as before,
Knowing how far I’ve come I still wanted to re-open that door,

tears hit my eyes but I refused to let them see me cry ,
The others and my inner Demons , (sigh) ,
I spent those few minutes which felt like years in the dark,
Internally broken and torn apart,

It was like a was living a horror story,
Based on life’s true events no glory,
But this time there was a happy ending,
My thoughts decreased and my pain was mending ,

I didn’t give in to the inner demons of the past,
even though it killed me , during and while it lasts.