Music of life

Lost in the rhythm of the wave,

The stronger I get the more I can save,

The strength and not give in,

Praying for sanctuary but theres still sin,

flowing with chords tugged at the strings,

Life isn’t predictable like these things,

Open to whats out that door,

Anxiously awaiting more,

Staccato in a slow rhythm,

Cutting through the slow incision,

Lost in a musical ballad,

Questioning if life is valid.

Fly By

moments seem to flash by,
all the bad moments and the highs,
seem to fly by like it was yesterday,
who knew what we've said,

time goes in circles same way each day,
paths go in the direction but different ways,
people come in and out of your life,
happiness and strife,

every moment feels like a season,
unexpectedly with or without reason,
it flies by with each turn,
with passion and yearn.

Gabriella

Times seem to flow by,

It used to be you and I ,

Now time seems to drag us apart,

But our memories will last in my heart,

our memories made me smile,

In the short moment while,

We have this short time,

I can write how much you made me smile in my rhymes,

You were with me when down,

Made my sadness turn around,

You’ve taught me a lot since you’ve been here,

I will miss you being near. 

Working on it

Working on it

You seemed like everything I wanted in life,

The balance of my happiness and strife,

But I fell hard and I was a fool,

And I drowned in the love pool,

You eyes got me lost in your smile,

Wandering lost while,

Im following the rhythm of your soul,

Leaving me with gaping hole,

my eyes lost my path cause I was focused on you,

Thought you loved me like I did too,

I was hurt but forgave to easily to soon,

But there’s light at the end of the moon. 

Loved the lies

Loved the lies

You taught me to stay strong and talk it out,
To be brave and be confident and learn what life’s all about,
I fell for you so bad,
But you didn’t realize what you had,

You played my heart broke my strings ,
Made me happy and whole lot of things,
But you said what I wanted you  to hear ,
And you pretending you wanted me near,

I believed the lies ,
Tears shed and whys ,
I felt what you didn’t feel,
And the feeling wasn’t real.

Hello

Hello meet the new me,

I’m way stronger than I used to be,

I’ve been torn down but I got back up,

Realizing my potential and that I’m enough,

 The new me will admit my fears,

Acknowledge my pain and my tears,

And get back up when I’m pushed down,

And switched my frown the other way around,

I feel like I’ve been tested but I didn’t give in,

I’m stronger than the inner sin,

Hello this is the new me,

Stronger than I’ll ever be. 

switch

i've been hurting trying to get you back,
knowing each time i cry, its like a heart attack,
my heart didn't want to take it, my brain wanted deny it,
but i was persistent and didn't quit,

so i tried and tried,
and got denied and cried,
it took days of sadness and tears,
scared to let you go and all my fears,

but then i made a mental note,
and my mind switched and made an oath,
that we would remain friends,
and to save my heart i wouldnt bend,

it switched on to off just like that,
if only i could of saved some pain and bring time back,
but my pain came to and end,
and ive gained a friend.

give your heart away

ive said things ive meant,
till it turned around and bent,
 my heart in two,
I thought it was true,

it hurt me when you wanted to break up,
that you had enough,
but it broke me to pieces when you denied,
the feelings , I was so open and I tried,

to be the person that made you smile,
all the while,
I gave my heart away,
to be hurt another day,

but at least we are still friends,
even though it hurt, it won't end,
we are still friends in the moment,
its just now my heart you didn't own it,

Jump in

ive tried many times,
written many rhymes,
ive dipped my feet in and tested the water,
only to be hurt and to be pushed farther,

im scared to jump in again,
knowing the same thing can happen then,
im growing in what I thought I wanted,
feeling lost and haunted,

my heart can beat when scarred,
being hit and caught off guard,
I can keep trying and fighting,
knowing I might hit lighting,

im not gonna jump in cause im scared,
knowing the feeling is still there,

Broken thoughts

I can’t admit I’m scared,

Even though the feelings there,

I can’t admit I’m sad,

Cause there’s so many moments Ive had ,

Tears running down my face,

Not enough embrace,

Aches and breaks,

Enough to take ,

Me down for being brave,

Knowing I’ll cave,

In for being weak,

Voiceless lost I can’t speak .

Trying

Trying 

I’m trying to be strong I won’t give in , I’m strong enough,

Life will test me but I’m tough,

It’s like a race for happiness I need to catch up,

I gotta make sure I don’t overflow my cup,

I must breathe when I need it,

Know I’m too tough to quit,

Trying leads to flying,

Knowing and admitting is better than lying,

I’ve made mistakes,

Bent and till I ached ,

I’m gonna keep trying,

Till I see the eagles flying. 

The ballad of the struggle

The ballad of the struggle

Right now life is a tint of grey,
Sadness likes to hit in it’s own way,
Emotions whisper like a bad dream,
Is anything as it seems ,

My past haunts me like a monster under my bed,
Fear chasing me in my head,
Tomorrow seems unsure,
Lost and thoughts too premature ,

Riding life like wave rough through,
Remembering life isn’t always true,
Internal fears mix with unrealistic fears,
Tide flows like my tears.

Cold summer

Time hits like a truck and seasons changed ,

One minute it’s on it’s way and the other is rearranged ,

Rhymes change from tone to tone,

One day is beautiful as may one day it’s cold as stone,

The sky breathes warm wind but sends me shivers ,

Who knew the tears would bring me quivers,

The light bends,

Different trends,

The season change,

As Life rearranges . 

Grandpa(fathers day poem)

You taught me everything a father could,

Your my hero and my inspiration who would,

Lift me up when I am down,

You always believed I could turn it around ,

Your were my number one fan,

Your believed in me and helped me stand,

With your hope I believed ,

Life and more was possible and I could achieve,

More than what I dreamed,

Cause life isn’t want it seems . 

Walk on

Walk on. 

Watch me fall,

I’ve seen it all,

Watch me fly,

I’ve been through the highs ,

Watch the grays,

The new and the old ways,

Be open to the new,

The abstract unanswered view,

Watch me break out and bloom,

I’ve reached new goals and overcame the doom,

Watch the pain,

That showed my strength as the pain washed out like rain,

And when life tested me through,

I remembered I had all of you,

Who made life easier to go through,

And for that I thank all of you. 

Life is a beautiful view

Life is a beautiful view

Walk with me through the rain,

See my life through my window pane,

Watch me grow from all the pain,

As everything flows through the drain ,

Capture the moments through the lens,

As we fight through as we break and bend,

Remember the story that got you here,

All the people who you value dear, 

The moments are new,

Pain when the sky isn’t blue,

Capture the pain with the beauty of life ,

Happiness and strife. 

Walk with me

Life is a long pathway of ups and downs,

I admire you for helping me trying to turn it around,

You showed me and taught me so much about the bright side,

And I can be honest with you and I don’t need to hide,

You helped me dissect the pain,

Helped me talk about it and didn’t think I was insane,

You let me cry out what was on my mind,

Helped me talk through what I couldn’t find,

You hugged me and showed me

It’s okay to cry ,

And that you were by my side,

You took my hand and made me understand,

As you walked with me and took my hand. 

Breakdown of tears

Breakdown of tears

I had one ,it felt like it’s been awhile,
Who knew I still cried like a child,
I felt so much in the one moment in time,
So overwhelmed , I’m writing it in rhymes,

I couldn’t breathe when I tried,
A flood of tears I cried,
I was so scared , it’s been awhile,
Too much to pile.

Opaque glass

Opaque glass 

 Sometimes I wonder if my journey is supposed to teach me something,

Like a abstract feeling in a painting while your brushing ,

Is life trying to show me a way,

A meaning behind what people really say,

Does the journey test me by my strength,

Or by my endurance by length,

Does it define who I am inside,

Maybe that’s the reason people hide,

And does life challenge me by what I’m capable of,

Or is it god above,

Does times change based on the feeling,

Or the strong seasons through our emotions , the surrealing. 

Blend

Blend 

Every now and then

I think of when you left the world then,

My heart is reminded all the happiness you taught me,

And how you wanted so much to be,

A happy , strong person each day,

But your life was so grey,

I’m reminded how much I’ve made you smile,

In this short while,

My mind replays those times,

In my heart and rhymes,

Every now and then,

The tears and paint blend.

Visits from butterflies

Visits from butterflies 

When I’m lost I look for guidance and a answer,

Your the rhythm and I am the dancer,

When I’m confused you have the time,

When all the words don’t rhyme,

You come back and remind me ,

Life isn’t as easy as it seems to be,

You reappear and I’m reassured,

I’m strong with all I endured . 

Those walls

Those walls 

I must branch out from my walls,

Growing through things not being afraid to fall ,

I must learn from the pain I’ve endured ,

Admit the pain that made me impure ,

The walls defined my past,

Is a fragment that won’t last ,

My mind is a fragile piece, 

The past I must release,

The boarder won’t protect me from the future and the fear,

Knowing it’s a army growing near,

I’m weak and strong from the past,

Knowing I’m gonna fight and last .

Ease

When you reassured me with those words ,

I was so relieved it struck my heart chords,

My heart melted and my eyes cried happy tears,

And everything disappeared all my internal fears,

My heart felt whole,

Where there was a incomplete hole,

My mind felt at ease and the pain erased ,

As my heart evened paced,

Then I realized it was really love,

The angels struck a chord above,

Everything felt complete inside,

Now I don’t have to hide. 

Battle

Battle

I accept whatever decision you make,
Although it will hurt and ache,
I want you to be happy and I won’t stop you,
But I can’t follow you down, I won’t follow you through,

It hurts to think I’m a choice,
But I’m strong enough to have a voice ,
I want you to know I’m gonna be okay,
If you decide that one day ,

My heart will heal,
The pain will be real,
But I’m gonna make it through ,
With or without you.

Friends through all the season

Times change,People age,

Life tends to rearrange,

but im thankful for the time we’ve had,

All the moments you made me feel glad,

All the times you’ve made me smile and laugh,

I now have your autograph, 

Tattooed on my heart,

Cause your my friend even after we part,

Life will take us different ways different places,

But im thankful you came through despite the many faces,

I will never forget what you taught me,

And all the advise that made me a better me,

bed

when I lie in my bed ,

Thoughts run through my head,

Of all the options of the future ahead,

i just wanna relax instead,

My mind wanders like im walking,

The past lingering like it’s stalking,

My mind racing,

As im anxiously pacing,

I feel like im growing in my thoughts,

Like a fish caught,

My mind flooding my sheets deep into my pillow.

Whispering like a willow.

Rainy days

Through the rain, your my shelter that keeps me dry,

Your know all the answers to questions why,

You lift me up and make me smile,

In the best way, you make me feel like me while,

Times are hard and painful ,

You know just what to say to make me feel full,

Your eyes reassure me it’s okay,

And the end of the day. 

Pretty Imperfect Picture

my picture may not have a pretty beginning,
i maybe be weak, but inside I'm winning,
the image has cracks but I'm hopeful,
if its not your taste i won't be boastful,

its all in the eyes of the beholder,
it might not give you closure,
but its my story,
missing pieces that lead to glory,

its imperfections show my scars,
like in the constellations there are stars,
behind the imperfect pretty picture,
theres a bold fixture.

Forbidden

look through my eyes,
what do they show you, the darkness or the lies,
or the internal dreamland that no one see,
living in what we perceive,

we live in a world so hidden,
don't say the forbidden,
hide away the pain,
light the internal flame,

life isn't what they portray,
images seem to fleet away,
the unknown isn't questioned why,
the answers through the eyes

Friendship

Time will past,

But a friendship like ours will last,

No matter where you are ,day or night,

I’ll be there to shine my light,

I’ll always be here for you,

Be a shoulder to cry on and help see you through ,

Time can drag us further each day,

But I’m just one call away ,

I’ll always be here when your down,

To turn your frown around. 

Pacing

When I think of you my heart races ,

As well when I’m insecure my mind paces,

Your on my mind all the time,

Half of it in my rhymes,

I want you and I to be honest and open together,

Cause if we are , it won’t sever,

My mind races when I’m anxiously waiting,

I’m anxious anticipating,

Good moments ,

Trying to survive independently and own it,

I’m fighting my head,

As I dream of you instead. 

Scared

I’m scared to fall,

But life has shown me all,

Of the pain there is to offer,

But life doesn’t get any softer,

I’m scared to feel ,

I know what’s fake and what’s real,

But I’m scared to grow,

Cause There’s so much I don’t know ,

I’m scared to be strong,

Cause life is so long,

But I’m scared to give in,

Cause that would be a sin,

Im scared of the feeling of being scared,

Knowing someday people won’t be there,

I wanna be a superhero, strong and brave,

Knowing I can’t always be there. 

Rhymes with you

Rhymes with you 

I’m stronger than the hate,

With the passion I create,

I love what I write ,

It’s as beautiful as the sky at night,

The rhymes are like my heart beat,

That beat faster with you , tender and sweet,

The power of true feeling brightens my day,

cools me down in that summer way. 

Paranoia

Tell me what’s on your mind,

I’m having a hard time to find,

A reason to your straight face,

Somethings lacking In our embrace,

My thoughts are going wild,

Maybe it’s just paranoia or me just being a child,

I’m constantly feeling some sort of distance between us,

Maybe I’m lacking in self trust. 

Me

When I think of me,

Being free,

From pain and sorrow ,

I think of tomorrow,

That everyday is a new chance,

To look at life from a new glance,

To start a new happy moment,

Living strong and owning it,

I look back at all the pain of the past,

Realizing it hurt but didn’t last,

The light guided me through the dark times,

With encouraging words and rhymes.

All of you

All of you 

The night sky never shined so bright,

You are the stars the brighten up the night,

The sun that shine through darkest days,

You are the brightest of rays,

Your the colors in the blank page,

The beautiful inside through the darkest stage,

The light when the path is dim,

Knowing I like you to the brim ,

Every part of you,

Is what I like nothing but us too,

Through the pain and the sorrow,

You have my heart to borrow. 

hold your hand

sometimes I reach my hand out and I imagine holding your hand,

helping you up, when your took weak to stand,

holding your hand as you walk through the rain,

missing you through the pain,

I miss your calls and our talks at night,

and how I kept you sane from the fright,

I hold my hand out and imagine your hand in mine,

knowing that your gone I won't find,

your hand embracing mine ,

and I wont hear you say your fine,

I miss holding your hand through the pain,

knowing my tears will flow just like rain.

Love who you are

Love who you are

Love who you are,

every part of you is a constellation, an individual star,

stand tall for what you believe in,

judgement is a internal sin,

your stronger than the hate,

share the love you create,

be who you are, stand true,

nothing can break you but you,

dont deny the strength that's there,

know your strong and you care,

love who you are and who your gonna be,

follow the light that you will see.