Maybe it wasn't the time

I thought the time was right to start,
a start a new relationship to heal my heart,
but I wasn't ready to give my all,
I still had pain that led to our downfall,

maybe I was a wrecking time bomb,
irrational when I was supposed to be calm,
so it ruined our chances,
stoping it at our first glances,

maybe I was a little paranoid at first,
not ready so I burst,
I was falling before I flied,
wanted happiness but I cried.