Sometimes I look back

Sometimes I look back .

Sometimes I look back into the past,

It seems so far away but now it’s  gone at last,

It peaks into my life now and then,

And when I’m sad it hits me again,

But the past is behind me,

It’s so far gone but I can still see,

The fragments of the past that I dragged behind,

That sends me into a rewind,

My mind is like a tap recorder I can replay it over and over,

It can crush me like a overweighted bulldozer,

But sometimes I look back,

To remind me of what life I had,

It’s painful but so is now,

I managed then when people where wondering how,

But sometimes I look back to the past,

To realize the courage and the ability to ask,

For help and guidance,

As the agony release in subsidence.