Mind twister

My good friend is an alcoholic and drug addict,

a girl I know committed suicide for mind havoc , 

My friend group is a mixture of good and bad,

Bipolar and manic even sad,

But I’m just as good and bad as everyone else,

I’m my worst enemy than drugs itself,

It’s a twister of mind trauma,

Constant internal drama ,

Words take over my head,

As substances take over others instead,

SH takes me at its power,

When people are begging for the next hour ,

Of a drink or a smoke,

And I still remember the bandages that soak,

The pain of me and the world,

Everyone’s ship will turn.

A recipe for Prince Charming

A recipe for Prince Charming 

I still have all the confidence I had maybe even more,

I want a guy who’s fun like before,

Someone different from the past,

Fun yet I want  it to last,

Someone who makes me

Blush,

Gives me tingles and makes my blood rush,

Someone who beats to the rhythm of my heart,

Who soothes me when I’m torn apart,

There’s no Prince Charming,

And to me it’s not disheartening,

 But wouldn’t it be nice,

to have the magical and spice,

Of a love meant for you,

Forever bonded enter-twined us Two.  

The real deal

The Real deal

Life’s not a fairytale ,

No god mother to soothe you when you wail,

No magic to make your night,

No prince to hold you tight,

No story meant just for you,

No happy song when your blue,

In life there’s no magic dust,

And many dresses aren’t a must,

And no castles and no jewels,

And no place to rule,

Just me ,myself and I,

And yourself when you cry,

No guaranteed happy ending,

No magic to help cure mending,

But life isn’t a story set in stone,

No magic sparks to soothe yourself alone. 

Love riddles

Deep down inside,

I dried your tearless tears when you cried,

I held your hand through the pain,

Made you smile as the pain remained ,

I fell hard for you,

And my heart feels broken in two,

And when life was hard I felt I loved you,

But now I’m lost in the blue,

Cause nothing feels the same,

When I thought it was real and it’s just a game,

When I fell for you too,

I thought you loved me like I love you.

Follow wherever the bridge leads you

Follow wherever the bridge leads you

When opportunities give you a second chance,

Take that last glance,

At the life and the memories before you,

Reminisce before you start a new,

Take things with a grain of salt,

Not everything is your fault,

Find where you belong and own it,

When life finds you don’t quit,

And when the time comes fly,

Don’t let time pass you by,

Soar through the opportunities at hand,

Why sit when you can stand.

Heart juggle

Heart juggle

I give it my all,
To watch my feelings fall, to see the emotion from a reflection,
That won’t give back , it’s just tension,

And when I feel it’s given deep,
All words and all I meant and I keep,
True to my heart , but it’s like a dart,
Bounces back nonstop, like an abstract work of art,

I hurt like real,
Knowing what I feel ,
But I hate constantly feeling like I’m juggling my heart,
Emotionally being torn apart.

Then and now

Then and now

Times aren’t the same,
Yet it’s still the same game,
The feeling between us is mutual,
But the feeling is unusual,

We speak at night,
But above me as I look up at the stars at night ,
I fear a spark in the air,
A strong passion that once was but isn’t there,

It rolls over and over in my mind,
As the answer is still hard to find,
What would become of two souls,
Will it be separate of one whole.