Make it right

Make it right 

I’ve tried to make right,

To help make myself sleep better at night,

I’ve tried to make it work between us,

But your hard to trust ,

I tried to forget the pain you put me through,

Be the bigger person to you ,

But making it right isn’t easy ,

And life isn’t breezy,

I’m trying to move on from what you did,

Playing my cards and bids ,

I forgive you for me not you,

Knowing I’m stronger to move through.

The bully

The bully 

I’ve struggled a lot lately ,

It hurt me greatly,

The pain tore me down,

In darkness I didn’t know if I could turn it around,

I questioned people who loved me,

I was as angry as can be,

I couldn’t see the friends who were standing by me,

Blinded I couldn’t see,

You hurt me and I struggle,

Enough to fix the broken puzzle,

Ached to the point where i had to start over ,

My self esteem/ worth and the work isn’t for her,

It hurts to feel the pain,

I admit it and let it fall like rain,

Washed my sins of the pain I may of caused ,

Trying to move on cause life doesn’t have a pause. 

Insecurities

Insecurities 

I overthink till my head explodes,

Sometimes you drag on the load,

Ive heard the voices that test me,

The pain that no one else can see,

Ive written them down,

Those hurtful words make me frown,

Im confident but they hurt me to the core,

Sometimes its non stop and more,

I may not be strong,

But I know those insecurities last long,

Im fighting an ongoing battle,

With emotional cattle.

people will test you.

time will test you, make you bend in break,
make you question those close to you and make you ache,
people will test your patience faith and over time,
have you in pain and crying and have you writing rhymes,

people take sides and make you wonder,
as you cry and ponder,
the dark side of humanity,
as they question your sanity.

Sunset

anger is the dark side of the sun,
rough moments have begun,
trials test the warm waters making it cool,
intense emotions like a whirlpool,

hints of lights spark hope,
whispering winds how do i cope,
timeless moments ongoing visions,
as it burns through its incisions.

Sometimes

sometimes life doesn't turn out how you've planned,
people test you to the point that you can't stand,
and people may hate you for no reason,
as you change with every season,

sometimes life won't give you the write cards,
and you might lose your guard,
sometimes people may hate you,
but they cant keep you feeling blue,

my heart will remain strong through the hate,
you can be mean and I will ache,
time will reveal the true person behind your mask,
and the truth will  bed revealed, as they ask.

Visions

I’m stuck in the past,

Dear god why does it last,

I re-opened the demons the haunt my fears,

As the demons drank my tears ,

I seem to go in a circle endless pain ,

The storm that hit me like rain ,

I’m aching as the strength pulls me through ,

Mending my soul as life comes a vision you .