Drug of choice

Drug of choice ,

But you had a voice,

A powerful tool,

But I know you think it’s cool,

I know it helped you sleep,

And kept those tears from making you weep,

But it’s a temporary feeling,

Life’s so much more surrealing,

It felt good he said,

Not the way it should , 

what sacrifices did you have to make,

To temporarily cure your heart ache,

And when you get it,

There’s always a time to quit,

Drug of choice ,

Use your voice . 

From your head to your toes

from your head to your toes 

Your gaze never fails to amaze,

Your eyes are like the stars, I haven’t seen them in days,

Your lips so tender and so sweet,

As beautiful as your summers swim in the heat,

Your arms as strong as a soldier,

Warms me up when days get colder ,

Your feet carry me when i am weak,

Fighting through with me to the peak. 

Intense

Intense 

When someone says something that hurts it’s like thunder,

All my emotions plunder ,

And when I feel pain,

It’s like a big storm of snow or rain,

And when I get angry and loud,

It’s like lightning in a crowd,

The  intense feeling,

Described as everyday weather , it’s surrealing ,

And I often wonder why I feel so intensely and deeply,

And when I can’t bare it I hibernate into some sleepy,

State, I sometimes spiral ,

Like a cyclone gone viral . 

Text again

Text again 

Sometimes I wish I could text you ,

Just To hear your point of view,

You always knew what to say,

On a sunny or rainy day,

You knew how to make me smile, 

Laugh and smile again while,

I’m in pain you made me feel,

The real feeling I didn’t conceal ,

Your my rock when I’m unstable ,

My crutch the made me able,

My healthy friend in the end,

When life caved in you made it mend,

I wish I could text you my sorrows,

As you hold me into tomorrow,

I wish I could text you my smiles , 

As your reply in the text lingers awhile,

I wish I could text you again,

But I guess I’ll wait until the moment when .

Love the way you did

Love the way you did 

People don’t love the way you did,

Or maybe I just picked the wrong bid,

I constantly think of you watching me up there,

And I feel like you really care ,

I know you see me when I cry,

You try to whisper the answers but I don’t know why,

The heavens don’t travel to earth,

But I know I’m strong and what I’m worth ,

You send me messages through the day, 

It’s like your reaching out Anyway,

But I know the world could of gave you so much more,

What we could do, If you didn’t open that door,

But people don’t understand me the same,

They didn’t play the same game,

They don’t know the notes to the melody,

And the cure remedy . 

Barrier

in the darkest times theres always a dim light,
a inner fire, a willingness to fight,
in times where life seems dull and low,
remember how far you've come and grow,

night will shine through into day,
remember the sky will shine after anyway,
when the rain falls,
remember your stronger than it all,

so no matter what barriers you may face,
things may flow out of place,
but your stronger than the dark vibe,
your the leader of your tribe,

Windows

its nice to be in a place with a view of the city,
its also refreshing to know that theres pain in the pretty,
the four white walls of the hospital kept my mind spiraling,
its nice to know the demons are inviting,

but nothing was on my mind but the beauty in the sky,
in the window the planes flying high,
I wrote a poem before this,
one with less happiness and bliss,

it was about a window and the view of the city,
and The beauty in contrast of the sadness and pity,
the lights in the  sky continued to shine,
in the moments of the dark dark times.