Heart juggle

Heart juggle

I give it my all,
To watch my feelings fall, to see the emotion from a reflection,
That won’t give back , it’s just tension,

And when I feel it’s given deep,
All words and all I meant and I keep,
True to my heart , but it’s like a dart,
Bounces back nonstop, like an abstract work of art,

I hurt like real,
Knowing what I feel ,
But I hate constantly feeling like I’m juggling my heart,
Emotionally being torn apart.

Then and now

Then and now

Times aren’t the same,
Yet it’s still the same game,
The feeling between us is mutual,
But the feeling is unusual,

We speak at night,
But above me as I look up at the stars at night ,
I fear a spark in the air,
A strong passion that once was but isn’t there,

It rolls over and over in my mind,
As the answer is still hard to find,
What would become of two souls,
Will it be separate of one whole.

Treading angel

As I see you treading to stay sober,
Life is pulling you under as it takes over,
Your fighting a long battle ,
With the past pulling you like cattle,

It’s hunger you crave,
Fight back and be brave,
The treading keeps you near,
But love and family is what you keep dear,

Find peace within you and not something to cosume,
When life mixes with it , it causes your doom,

As your treading water life pulls you down,
Everyone around you turns their smile into a frown,
As i watch my treading angel ,
Life is a constant war fighting with danger.

to all those who disagree

When people tell me I cant

Im fighting harder like a mile rant,

When people tell me im weak,

Ill show you Im not hear the words I speak,

Im a hard worker and I try hard,

As I stand out like a wild card,

When people fuel me with hate,

Watch all the miracles I can create,

And when people fill me with despair,

I know people that care,

And even when people disagree,

I stand on what I believe,

And when people say things about me that are wrong.

Ill prove to you that im 10 times as strong.

Every Inch Leads to a Mile

Every step forward takes you closer,

Even when life feels like a bulldozer,

My intuition leads me forward to the goal,

Even when there are many holes,

I continue to move towards little victories,

Despite the world contradictories,

I fight hard despite the whispers that say I cant,

I defy all odds that preach their rant,

I was given a leap I’m making stepping stones,

Creating a new place into my home,

Making inches into a mile,

Gathering my knowledge into a greater pile.

Shades of spectrum

Shades of Spectrum

To put it simple I thought I was my own unique brand,
Then I came across a different land,
To a place where everyone seems like me,
And a place to feel included and free,

But part of me seems to dread the feeling,
Of a inclusive place it’s not so surrealing,
But deep down inside I always knew I was different,
But now life feels coherent,

I feel like a clone of the same character,
Different name but same editor ,
wanting to stand out , yet fit in,
Has been more of a karma than a blessed sin,

I can’t stand having everyone like me,
But I’m trying to figure out what I’m supposed to be.

Brave

when life gets tough,
remember all the times you thought were rough,
life seems to flow uncontrollably,
and you observe and learn knowingly ,

you don't have to have the strength in you,
remember all the things you've learned and gain too,
fight towards what you believe in,
when life is full of trials are sins,

so don't fight with violence and words,
fly high and soar like a bird,
be brave and have the courage with in you,
when the night turns the sky bright blue.