At times

At times 

There are moments through out the day when I feel alone,

So hallow like stone,

It’s like a light has left my soul,

And its left with a gaping hole, 

I never felt truly ready for you to go,

No matter how much I prepared I didn’t know,

How hard it would hit me when you were gone,

It’s like a dark empty dawn,

I try to remain in the present day ,

But certain things lead me astray,

Certain moments and memories make me sad,

Cause the moments with you made me glad,

It’s hard cause I felt like a had a real connection,

With all my great intentions,

I was never ready for you to go,

But I know now something I’ll never know,

What it’s like to have a true friend,

Through thick and thin, till the end. 

There’s tomorrow

There’s tomorrow 

When your all alone,

And life seems dark and cold as stone,

Remember why there’s always tomorrow,

To cure and fade all your sorrows,

And when life seems hard and causes your in so much pain,

Remember it’s just part of the rain,

It will fade and time will heal,

Sadness it’s natural and real,

As long as you feel the feeling,

You can finally feel the healing,

There’s always a light and a tomorrow,

to dry all your pain and sorrow. 

I ask why

I Ask why 

Tears fall and I cry ,

I look at my life and question why,

It’s hard to feel the pain,

But it’s something natural but it remains,

It haunts me , and I wanna know why,

Tears fall and I cry,

But life seems like an endless struggle,

With empty pieces to the puzzle, 

So I sit here and question why,

Why time seems to fly,

When life has its great moments,

And sadness takes its toll  and owns it, 

But there are so many whys to unanswered prayers,

Life continues on and as layers,

I will move forward and still wonder why,

Tears fall when I cry. 

When it seems impossible

dedicated to Kate Spade and Anthony Bourdain

 (everyone suffers from pain whether it’s internal or external , it’s a battle. It’s okay to ask for help. When life seems impossible to bare remember there’s always someone that cares. ) 

When it seems impossible 

The space between your fingers brings comfort in bed,

As You replay the things over and over In your head,

You imagine the sun beyond the rain,

And the happiness beyond the pain,

So many go through the same pain,

As it consumes them , instead of falling down the drain,

The pain can be the shadow of their fear,

Drawing them closer ,as they shed a tear,

Nothing can bring them peace,

Internal or an external release,

No matter what happens here,

The end of you won’t draw near,

Cause your strong despite the pain,

There’s light beyond the rain,

And even if it seems like the end,

Everything and everyone must mend.

Hole in my heart

It hasn’t even been a week,

But my Loneliness and sadness has reached its peak,

It’s like the sun won’t ever shine again,

As all my sorrows fall into a empty drain,

It’s a blue sky, yet all I see is grey clouds ,

Lost and empty in a large crowd,

I try to imagine your still here although your far away ,

But no matter how far you are ,

I wished you Stayed ,

Time seems to drag on forever,

It’s like part of me has severed,

When I laugh it feels like there’s no meaning,

It’s like I’m lacking in feeling,

I know people come and go all the time,

But I’m in deep Sadness with my rhymes ,

Cause it hurts to feel like I’m all alone,

As my heart feels cold as stone 

Days seem to drag on

I can’t seem to count the days,

Cause it seems to haunt me in so many ways,

That soon you will be away from here,

And that our time is drawing near,

every moment of everyday it gets close to you leaving,

And the times together is like Weaving ,

Over and over until their gone,

And then it’s over just like another dawn,

My mind admits it but my hearts not ready,

I can’t contain it I can’t keep my heart steady,

Maybe I’m as ready as I’ll ever be,

But I know I can’t be strong you see,

I’ve done so much with you,

So many days and nights too,

I’ve had a good role with you,

And I hate to see you go too,

But nothing will prepare me for this,

Not even my happiness for you and bliss,

will stop me from missing you,

And all the things we’ve been through. 

Change is hard

Change is hard. ( empty halls , empty space) 

What now seems and feels

Like a empty house,

Symbolizes quietness as mute as a mouse,

Many people have come through these doors,

And many memories flow through these floors,

But now it seems quiet  almost like before,

And now emptiness and empty rooms haunt this door,

People come and go through this house,

Now it’s nothing but the shadows of a Louse ,

The shadows fade from these doorways,

As people fade away each day,

The rooms get emptier at night,

And nothing  seems to feel right.