The world

I see suffering, pain and people torn apart,

But I also see beauty and abstract art,

The world shows me sunny and rainy days,

With deep blues and dark greys,

I see hunger , poverty and abuse,

But I see people putting pain to good use,

Making awareness and strength ,

To spread the message to great length,

I see death , sickness and discrimination,

Through cities  countries and our nation,

I see people who can’t get along,

I see people who think they have it all ,

I’ve seen the  happiness and the  pain ,

I’ve seen the sunshine and the rain ,

I’ve been through both good and the  bad,

I’ve experienced the happy and the sad ,

I want a change,

 But I’m worried it shifted an rearranged,

Dedicated to my seal

A friend might not be a person figure,

Your spirit and love make you so much bigger,

No being can make me feel as special as you,

A stuffed animal giving me comfort, who knew,

You may not be able to reply,

But you listen to me and console me when I cry,

You are always there when I need you,

You always know what to do,

When I’m happy or sad,

Your my company when I had,

No one with me ,

As I was blind you help me see,

Your my comfort and my company now and before,

Here and their when I hit the floor,

You remind me that I can have hope,

You encourage me when all I can say is nope,

As I grow older, wiser and stronger,

I may not need you that much longer,

But my heart will always have room for you,

CauSe your my sunshine when I’m blue .

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When I look at my myself , staring at my fade,

Tears pouring like rain, arms in an embrace,

My thoughts scatter all over the floor ,

Arms in prayer, I can’t do it anymore ,

Grey skies haunt my shadow in the sun,

Dark shadows take my power I’ve won, 

The voices  compell my sanity ,

The voices in her causes voice profanity,

People judge my body and heart,

Inner thoughts rates me apart,

I’m hidden in the mists of my struggle ,

I’m missing a piece to my puzzle ,

My body is a distorted view,

I’m hiding my pain, if only you knew. 

( drawing and poem made by me ) 

A new day

I wake up every day grateful for a new day,
for how everything thing turns out , no matter what anyone has to say,
For the good moments and the bad that hit my day,
And the painful ones that block my way,

Despite the day the time and the weather,
Every moment I’ll strive for better,
 I may have a rough patch or two,
But everyday I start new,

It will turn out how it turns out,
Even if it’s bad I’ll still shout,
Shout out to a day of good or bad,
I’ll never take it for granted happy or sad

Letters to I

Your nothing like the old you,
Sick like before that’s not new,
Your the same but changed ,
The you but rearranged,

Your a strong person, friend and daughter,
Without the strength and guidance of a father,
Your wounds have healed ,
Your scars have sealed ,

The pain of the past,
The pain you always thought would last,
Your happy , happier than you ever was,
Happy for being you cause,

You have a meaning,
You have feeling,
Yet your happy to be content,
Happy that you can vent ,

In a positive way,
And say what you need to say,
But yet you still get sad,
Even though you wish you never had,

To ever be sad ,
But I’m greatful for what I had

I’m just a .... kid (ADULT)

Maybe it’s hard to be not a kid,
And despite everything I did,
To grow up and become my age,
It leaves a mark like a hint of sage,

I can’t go back to what I was then,
Even if it was safe when ,
I was young and carefree,
I just wanna find the real me,

The real me between the new and the old,
The past and the now turns cold,
When I try to preserve both parts of me,
When I try to connect the two , I can see ,

The before and after me,
The connection of the two I can’t see,
Can the two me’s unite,
Or is one a weakness like kryptonite

Sunkisssd love

Smooth calm waters flow gently through my toes,
the smell of the salty air hits my nose,
Sunny skies and  clouds of blue,
The sensation of you,

Your breath on my neck,
Loving me like what the heck,
Gentle lips kiss me cheek,
As my legs give in weak,

Your tender voice like the breeze in the summer air ,
The sand in my long black hair,
The beautiful sun shining bright ,
As your body hits me , oh so right .

I’m sunkissed loved in the sun,
Nothing but you and fun .