Lee poetry- RIP

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Finding my ground

Sometimes I’m a big fish in a small pond ,

But other times I’m a small fish in a big pond,

I’m not fond of ethier , I rather be in the middle,

But everywhere I go it’s like a riddle,

I can’t go to communicate in the language of others,

I try hard not to smother ,

People with my delayed reaction,

I’m trying to get satisfaction,

I try hard to fit in,

When I wanna feel win,

I feel confused finding my mold,

When I feel like I wanna fold. 

Happy holidays

 Happy holidays!!! To all my followers. Thanks for all your support!!! 

My poetry notebook collection. 10 volumes

Due to certain changes in my life, I have had to stop blogging for a while. In that time I have worked on my mental health and my independence. I now currently have a job and I created 11 poetry books in that time. I still hope to grow and continue to write poetry. Besides my Facebook poetry page and my books I hope to continue blogging. Feel free to use this link to connect to my personal blog. 

Many thanks 

I’m grateful for all my supporters and followers. 

Expectations

I don’t wanna be the reason you talk smack,

Cause I might be weird or have something you lack,

I won’t let it get to me or hack,

my heart or mind,

Because I’m not perfect so cut me some slack,

Maybe I do things a little bit differently,

And I’m not normal currently,

I try to live and be my best self ,

Love my story, love my health,

And I maybe cheesy and I maybe plain,

Maybe crazy and maybe insane,

But I don’t have to live up to anyone’s expectations but mine, 

And I’m fine with me being fine. 

Fighting for

Know what your fighting for 

The past and the stories , learn more 

Remember the journey and the meaning 

The cause and the feeling 

Do you believe in your cause 

Do you earn that applause 

Is it peaceful or violent 

Loud or silent 

All lives matter riot or not 

If you fight you will get caught 

Speech isn’t feee if you hate 

Speak now don’t wait 

Canvas

The worlds a canvas 

My life’s a page 

Capture the journey 

And vent the rage 

Note down the smiles 

Dry the tears 

Draw the places 

And connect your fears 

Explore your mind 

Search for more 

Hide your secrets 

Open doors 

Races

I’ve been to so many places

So many new faces 

On there own journey Paces 

All different races 

They all relate 

And when it aches 

When people can’t make 

It work for people’s sake 

All the races 

Similar faces 

One goal 

A unison role 

My state of mind

I’ve calmed down a little bit 

Still pumped through my mind won’t quit 

A thousand miles an hour

In full power 

My thoughts have been calm 

Like sunset or dawn 

Slight breeze of sadness 

There’s a method to my madness 

Pain and sorrow 

But there’s always tomorrow 

Calmer state

Fresh new plate 

Who is she

I’m standing next to a stranger 

Someone familiar yet a danger 

I don’t know who she is 

All the happiness and bliss 

Out sleeping all hours

A boost of confidence like a super power 

Tears for no reason 

Interrupting like it’s treason 

Racing thoughts

Get you caught

Knowing you 

From a new point of view 

My story

Some of my friends i had turned away 

They didn’t understand when I asked them to stay 

My situation they couldn’t comprehend 

When I was there for them and made amends 

Through my thick and thin 

My loses and wins 

I’ve gained and I lost 

For what cost 

My depression story developed each day 

Good and bad what can I say 

I learned a lot and grew

I couldn’t believe how much I knew

About my life 

Happiness and strife 

Manic

I’ve been in touch with my dark side
My pin sadness and downward ride
But I’ve been experiencing the other shift
The happiness the hyperness  and the racing mind lift

Although happiness and happy feelings are great
Hyperness isn’t great even this late
I’m not aware of this manic side
Cause I was sad and now I’m on a unfamiliar ride

Two sides two extremes
Two sides pulling at the seams

Addiction

I never knew how much you were struggling not even now
Having others explain it is still hard I ask how
How much did I really know about you
Cause I’m just as lost as you too

What’s your story
Why do some lose and some have glory
Why couldn’t you stop the pain
I get it you need it to be sane

I don’t understand and never will
It’s something your Ill
All I can be is a friend
Till the end

Meditate

Close your eyes and count to ten
Reflect back to the moment when
You felt complete
Don’t admit defeat

Breathe in and out
Remember when life’s about
Don’t ride
Relax through the calm tides

Smile at the rain
And don’t refrain
Don’t hide back
What you lack

My heart

My heart flows like a endless river
Patience let me sit and watch it simmer
Watch me reflect on the past and grow from it
I won’t give in and I won’t quit

I have a strong soul
Opens up and keeps me whole
My heart holds my faith
With all the leaders and saints

I won’t back down
Things will turn around
My heart will stand true
Despite the hate that tries to shine through

Moody blues

When I have the moody blues,
I gather my strength and put of my happy shoes,
Take a walk outside ,
Through the caves wonder where I hide,

The river flows the mountains fly,
Nothing is wrong with me myself and I ,
I may have my faults and pains,
But there just small stains ,

Moody blues,
Happy dancing shoes,
Through and through ,
Remembering you got you

Forever regretful

I couldn’t save you ,
I tried everything I could do,
It’s been more than two years and I still feel bad,
Every now and then I feel sad,

It’s not so easy but time helps as it goes by,
Being with you help time fly ,
It’s harder to find peace but I’m healing ,
Life’s gifts are so surrealing,

I regret not being there ,
And not showing you enough that I care,
Being the friend you needed  me To be,
I regret deeply, now I can see .